Why do people think that Rubin likes me? I think it’s IMPOSSIBLE

(4.29PM)
I got some updates on Rubin. He is a dancer too. Which kind of dancer? HIP HOP! He is a b-boy OMG! That is so cool right?! He gave me a call last night for chit-chatting again. This time, it was shorter. I kept telling him I wanted to sleep because I’m afraid I couldn’t wake up in the morning again. So we chatted for only one and a half hour. He was like my hokkien language tutor lol. He talked to me in Hokkien and expected me to reply him in Hokkien. OMG! How can I do that?

This morning I slept back after switching off both alarms. Thank GOD Bong called me to wake me up. We both then messaged for a while in the class since the lecturer was absent. He said he felt that Rubin is courting me. OMG! Is he for real?! He is not the first to say so. See Theng was the first, he was the second. I wondered what made them think so. If you ask me ‘would I like to be his girlfriend if he asks so?’ I think right now I might say NO even though I’m so obsessed over him because I think I still don’t know him yet. We only know each other for one week. How can this happen?

He is so good looking and there are so many girls out there who are so pretty. I bet he won’t choose me. I’m way too short for him. I am only 150cm but he is 178cm. I remembered he said I’m cute that night during the dinner but of course, as a guy, they always compliment girls during dinners or occasions like that right? Even though he told me he likes cute girls but I don’t think I’m in his list. Felicia is way better than me. She is tall, pretty and smiles always! That was what Rubin told me. He likes girls who are cute, friendly and MOST importantly, smiles always because he said when he sees her smile, he’ll be happy. I think he doesn’t like girls who make-up a lot because he criticized Yako so much when he viewed my brother’s profile in Friendster.com

See, I really don’t think I’m in his list! He has got loads of good stuff with him. Me? Incomparable! Even though I will be damn happy if I have such good looking boyfriend but I still don’t think we both can be in those relation. Perhaps it might be better if we stay as good friends, but we will never know what will happen. We can’t predict future! Kam Hoong was funny enough to think that I put Rubin’s photo as my hand phone’s screen saver. He had mistaken Bato by Rubin. Speaking of BATO, it has been long since the last time I watched BBT. I miss him so much! I miss watching his popping!

(Thurs, 1AM)
I slept at 7pm. I felt tired. I woke up 2 hours later when Rubin called. Rubin hasn’t messaged the whole afternoon I thought he might stop messaging already. I also told myself ‘li ting, stop dreaming, he is not for you!’ He only messaged a little in the morning today and few messages after his class, telling me he is not in luck this year. As usual, I asked him for the time when he called me at 9pm. He asked me back ‘why every time I call you, your first question is what the time now is?’ I ignored the question. I asked him if he is not happy today. He sounded a little different.

He told me he is going to Thailand with his friend maybe in the month of March or April. He’ll be paying for his friend’s plane fare since he needs his friend to accompany him. He said he’ll be there maybe for only two days and a night, just for some prayers so that his luck will change. It shows how much he is into prayers and all. I’m not so into it! Then we discussed about going to Pulau Redang in June. My responsibility now is to check out the package price in Malaysia. He said he might call around 3 to 4 of his friends to join the trip to P. Redang. After going to Redang, I’m supposed to bring him around since I have car.

He asked me out this Sunday to Pantai Cermin because I said I haven’t been there. Again, he asked me to bring friends there. I bet he is a guy having same character as me. We love to be around with friends, places which have many people, crowded, celebrations, parties and things like that. I think he scared to be lonely, like me. So he wanted me to call another 6 people because his car can fit 8 people. Somehow, the trip to Pantai Cermin this Sunday is canceled because MCCC will have dinner this Sunday night to celebrate the success of the dinner done last Saturday night.

Rubin told me to wake him up at 11pm. He said he wanted to rest for a while. Before hanging up his phone, he reminded me to take my dinner. I think it sounded a little funny. He always reminds me to take dinner, while I kept reminding him to go for shower. So I called him at 11.15pm. He was awake, not sleeping, said he was online. I guess he was gaming because he said he’ll call me back in a while so for the meanwhile, he told me to complete my assignments. He then called at 12.30am which I thought he won’t call already since it is already so late. He asked what time I am going to bed. I’m not so sure about it, perhaps in an hour time, I said. He then told me he is very tired and said he’ll go sleep now and that I don’t have to worry because he already showered and washed his face.

Bong messaged me and told me that he still has feelings for me but he didn’t hope any return from me. He just hopes I’m happy, that’s all. I told Sik Mei about Rubin. She viewed his profile and said he definitely is good looking but not too good till we can say he is very handsome. She said he looks like Korean. I think it all because of the way he dresses. Sik Mei reminded me that look comes second. What comes first is his character. She also gave her opinion. She said she thinks he can be a very nice friend, but not a good boyfriend. What does this mean? Is it all because of his look? Is she afraid that he might have a lot gossips with other girls and hurt his own girlfriend indirectly that way, exactly like what he himself is worrying right now? Once again, I must declare that, all my best friends are really nice and good to me! I appreciate them all and I miss them so much!