Malaysia! I'm coming home!

I've booked the tickets home! GOOD news right? I got so excited everytime i'm booking tickets to fly home. I miss my friends and family so much! BAD news: exam's here =( Gosh~ help me! I'm like having so many assignments.. and there are loads to erad.. die la...

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I'm so touched knowing all these old friends in Malaysia still care so much for me. I'm sorry to make you all worry of me because of my relationship. Perhaps it is all because I'm still new in this relation. Time will change things into better! I'm seriously surprised reading your comments, emails etc. I seriously never thought you people would spare your time for such long wods for me. I appreciate them really. Guess what?! I've saved them in my diary =) I love you people! I miss MGS life so much! There, I can chat with each and everyone of you freely. Thanks for checking out my blog even though this blog has been dead. I desperately need listener here leaving alone in Medan. I miss all of you so much!

I musn't give up easily!

There are still people supporting me even though many commented about my relation with Kelvin. I asked why is it so shocking to know I'm with Kelvin now. Their replies were funny. I mean, they didn't really replied. They just said "because... it's Kelvin?!! and Li Ting! I mean, Li Ting and ... err... Kelvin? Just shocking. I'm so sorry for being so judgmental." What do they mean by this?

I received a comment from G-dah. I published it. You people can just click the button below to read it. It is so nice for her to wish the best for me even though she sounded surprised knowing me having an Indonesian boyfriend. I really need more supports from my friends to build up and increase my self-confidence. These days I have been so down. I have no confident for myself. I hate myself for doubting Kelvin.

I shouldn't think negatively. Well, I'm not as optimistic as others think of me. I had enough this one week. Today is the 31st day we are together. Perhaps I'm thinking too much. That is what i must not do! All I have to do now is, exactly like what G-dah just commented, TRUST! I must have faith in our relation. I must trust my partner. I must believe that we can make it. I must not give up so easily. I must not cry anymore for what had happened in the past because crying helps NOTHING. We can't change what has already happened. I must learn to be tough.

I just messaged Kelvin and I promised not to change. I promised him I won't give up on our relation so easily and I want him to do the same. Give us both some time. Perhaps it is like what Tracie told me. We just got together. Maybe this is the reason why I feel insecure being with a busy guy who spends little time with me. I'm just not used to this new life. TIme will change things and I will soon adapt myself perfectly into this new life with Kelvin.

Misunderstandings

I cannot stand it anymore. I’m weak! I lost! I thought I wouldn’t care what others commented about my relationship with Kelvin but NO! I was lying to myself. I care about what others say about us. I cared so much. Kelvin didn’t reply me again last night. I messaged so much and thought if he is not replying again, did this mean he is sleeping already? I called him before 12AM. I was already lying on my bed. I tried calling him and surprisingly he answered but after I said hello, he cut my call. I told myself “Li Ting, forget about this guy. He didn’t care for you anymore. He is not replying you and now he is cutting your call.”

I was still thinking about it, about the reasons why he didn’t reply me and why he cut my call when he called me saying his phone battery’s problem and asked “Why call?” This question sounded so new to me. He never asked this way. So I told him “Why you didn’t reply me?” He said he didn’t receive my message at all. So I told myself “Alright, Li Ting, forget about it. It is not Kelvin’s wrong. It is the signal problem. Don’t blame him.” He asked what happened to me I just say nothing happened. It is just that I was thinking why he didn’t reply me but now it is because of the signal problem, it is alright. I am alright. Then he was like “Okay. Go sleep then. Goodnight. Sweet dreams.”

I don’t like this phrase. Not at all! I was thinking so hard but I don’t know what I was thinking. It is blank in my mind but I was thinking. I thought of telling him how I feel via SMS then I think I better not because he won’t be replying. I then think I better sleep. Don’t think so much and sleep! I couldn’t do so. I can’t stand it. I want him to know how I feel all these days waiting for a no-reply SMS. It is not because of I wanted to SMS so much. I just think it is of no point if we message a person who doesn’t reply us. I called him again. I told him.

 
I know I shouldn’t show him this attitude before he sleeps but I really can’t stand it. I was disappointed! I still remember how much he wanted to meet me, how much he wanted to talk to me, how much he wanted to drive me when he just know me. I can hear, I can see and I can feel how excited he was. It is so different now! It seemed to me like he is no longer the Kelvin I knew. Why? Why is he so different now? Can we really make it? It is less than a month! I don’t want things to end like this. I love him. I really do. It hurts me so much. I suddenly feel like all these while I’m lying to myself. People have been asking why Kelvin is not driving me these days. I told them he has class, different time with me today. But now it is very clear that he DIDN’T PLAN to do so. He didn’t want to fetch me because he didn’t want to, not because he has classes at 8AM or because he is busy. If things like fetching me is like this, what about the messages and calls? He didn’t call me everyday like he used to be. I was the one who called him every day. Is this because he didn’t want to talk to me too?

Why do things turned out this way? I never expect things like this. I’m sad! I’m depressed. I didn’t message him in the morning when I wake up. Now, it is me. I DON’T PLAN to message him. He called while I was showering. When I called back, his phone is off. I don’t know why it is like that. I then received message from him telling “I fetch you” it is not “Good morning honey”. I waited until 6.45AM. He is not here yet. I thought he might not come anymore and so I decided to go to the campus myself because if I don’t go out that time I’ll be late. I tried calling him to confirm with him if he is coming. His phone is off again! So I messaged telling “I think you really don’t have to come. I’ll go myself. It is late.” I walked out of home slowly, thinking if I should wait just a little more. I then told Joanne “Actually he said he will come fetch us today. Should we wait or go ourselves?” 

As usual, she didn’t answer so I decided to go ourselves. Arrived at the junction where I got to cross the road, Kelvin’s car stopped. He apologized once we open the door. We didn’t talk much in the car. Both of us kept quiet. He looked sleepy. I asked him if he slept late last night. He said he slept once I hung up the call. He felt sick that was why he didn’t fetch me these days because he wanted to sleep longer. OMG! I didn’t know about this but is this true? I don’t know if I should still trust him. Arrived to campus, Joanne got down and I was still in the car telling him goodbye. He looked so down. I kissed him on his lips. It felt so different as if he didn’t want my kiss anymore. I asked him “You don’t want?” He said “No, I want!” I hesitated but we kissed again. I stopped him and asked “Do you really love me?” He looked a little angry saying “Stupid question.” I can feel my tears filling my eyes. I didn’t know why it is like that. I’m afraid the tears will drop because whenever it comes to relations, I am not tough at all! I hate dropping tears in front of people. Not even my parents or my brother. I don’t like people to see my sad face. That was why I always try my best to smile to people. 

I quickly opened the door and I told him “I won’t be messaging you. You message me when you’re free. If you’re busy, then forget about it. Do your things. You don’t have to message because I don’t want to wait for a no-reply message.” Finished saying these words, I closed the door without listening to his reply and walked off. I walked so slowly behind Joanne. I’m afraid she’ll see me with my wet eyes. I pretended I am alright in the class. Some people asked why I look different this morning. I told them I’m not fully awake yet. They laughed. I then received message from Kelvin. He asked “Why are you like that suddenly?” I told him it is not suddenly. I really don’t want things to turn out this way. He then replied so fast like he got no class. It has been long since he last did this, messaging in the class and replying so fast.

I suddenly received reply from him and it felt so weird. He can’t receive my replies. I didn’t know why. I don’t know what I should do. He kept asking why I am not replying him. At first he was like “Hmmm… Up to you then.” This sounded like he didn’t care at all whether I will reply or not. Later, he messaged again “Honey, please. Don’t treat me like this. I’m suffering.” I feel so bad and it was like a sore reading the message. I don’t want him to suffer. I didn’t plan not to reply him. I always reply him. In fact, I always reply him once I receive his message! He then called me. I was in the class. Rehulina’s class, I won’t dare to answer the phone because I was sitting right in front of the lecturer. I cut his call. He messaged again telling “Why you cut my call? You don’t want to talk to me anymore?”

I was like NO! NO! NO! I wanted to talk to you so much! He called again and this time I let it vibrate in my bag. He messaged again telling “No reply. You cut my call and now you are not answering my call. You really don’t want to talk to me?” I feel so bad. Why is the signal so bad these days? Now I understand it was all misunderstanding. I shouldn’t put the blame on him even though he is busy. I should understand more. I called him once my class ended but my call got cut again because of his phone. When he calls back, my phone was auto-off because there isn’t battery left. I quickly changed the SIM card into my china mobile but this phone, too, low battery! What a bad day!

At last I managed to talk to him, explaining why I didn’t answer his call and all. Soon after the call, he received all my messages and said we should stop messaging for the moment because both my phones have already ran out of battery and his phone battery sucks. He ended the message by telling how much he missed me and he loves me. On the way home, I met him in FK. He said he’ll send me home. He told me he was having backache and that he wanted to rest so much. After Joanne got down from the car, I quickly placed my palm onto his forehead checking if he is having fever. At the same time, I’m blaming myself. Blaming on how stupid I am to think I shouldn’t trust him anymore. Blaming on how dumb I am not to have confident on the guy I love. We chatted and said sorry to each other in the car.

Since then he has been sleeping the whole day. He messaged when he wakes up. The messages woke me up. The way he texted, it sounded like he was so tired but yet, he replied me. I didn’t blame him this time although all his messages were just “Yea…” one word. Only one word in his message sent to me. I didn’t know what to tell him. I kept reminding him to drink more, rest more and take medicine. I really hope he can recover faster. I don’t want him to be sick. I don’t want him to be sad. 

I was online and chatted with Teik Ming about us. Teik Ming only got to know I have a boyfriend today and he told me not to lose to people who commented about us because Li Ting is not a loser. She only wants to WIN. He, in fact, supported me and he didn’t feel shock at all hearing Kelvin is an Indonesian. Speaking of that, he is the one and only friend of mine, so far, not feeling surprised or shocked hearing about it. He said there is no barrier between nationalities as long as the guy treats me good. He reminded me to find him if I have problems in my relation and that he’ll be there to back me up. I never thought Teik Ming is such a nice friend because he always teases me but not this time. I guess he knew I’m going serious with Kelvin. 

I’m so sorry. I feel so sorry to Kelvin. I shouldn’t bring things up again and again and make him sad. I’m deeply sorry.

Pharmacology and Therapy practical

I don’t like the way Pharmacology department arrange the time for us. They should have followed the timetable given but right now they are arranging time according to their timetable and make us skip our classes in FKG. Lecturers are always smart. They threw all the responsibility to us, students to talk to the other lecturers about the time changed. In the end, students were scolded, blamed, nagged and many others.

Dr. Zul told one of the regular students to inform us this morning that we will be having our practical at 2PM. All of us don’t like having practical at 2PM because by having practical that time, we will have 4 hours of free time. Then Ali told us to join the class replacement of our Ilmu Bedah with the regulars today at 12PM. Alright… so we went having breakfast, again, 4 of us, Fransiscca, Desi, Joanne and me at Golden Yen at Jl. S. Parman. While eating I received call from Andrew about the latest news. He said the practical today is at 10AM not 2PM. When he called it was already 10.30AM. I was so shocked hearing that, quickly asked if the lecturer and everybody is in the lab already. He then said since everybody is not around, we will start practical at 11AM. Fuhh~ Thank GOD I don’t have to rush!

Sometimes I do think going places by car make us arrive slower. We four were among the last people who entered the lab. I still feel great nausea in me then… not specifically because of the food like previous days but I think most probably because I was feeling very well added up with Desi’s driving skill. Joanne felt the same too! We have rabbits today as our specimens and they all were so CUTE but they STINK!

Kelvin passed by the lab and he was standing there staring so I waved at him. He smiled and walked away. Radha then suddenly walked to me asking why I didn’t tell him I had a boyfriend already and how long have we been together. She asked me to show her our pictures. I only got one in my phone. She looked and smiled and commented saying the way we smile was so similar. Both of us having sweet smile, same angle *giggles* I just smiled listening this. I didn’t know who suddenly shouted “THERE! Li Ting’s boyfriend standing there looking!” Kesu then shouted “KELVIN!” I was stunned!

Everybody looked. All I can do is just smile to all of them, uttering no words! Umaiyal quickly said “Oh? Li Ting, so this is the guy you miss la?” What happened next was, all these girls purposely walk around the lab and pass by the door with glass where Kelvin was standing with ZW and Arlies to check out how Kelvin looked and this Umaiyal come up with “OMG! Li Ting! The FAT one?!” My respond was quick! “NO la… That’s ZW, my housemate!” She smiled so widely, of course, those bitchy evil smile that she always gave, saying “Oh? So it was the other guy. Hey… GOOD Li Ting, GOOD! He’s CUTE!” Frankly speaking, I was happy listening others praising my darling wee~

Then the other girls slowly came to me one by one and asked things like when we started and all of them were telling he looks good, some said he is cute *giggles* but nobody thought he was an Indonesian. Nobody thought I will be with an Indonesian. So after that hoo-haa in the lab when Kelvin was there, people start walk by me just to disturb, whispering or screaming “Kelvin” from time to time since the lecturer was not around for so long.

After lab, I told Joanne what was happening at the back of the lab. She said she knew because it wasn’t only happening at the back. In fact, the whole class heard “Kelvin’s Li Ting’s boyfriend.” Well, I guess right now, it is very clear to everybody that we are couple. I seriously never thought the whole class was talking about it OMG! Gossipers~

I took photos with the bunny that day =)

Long time no see PEOPLE! So sorry for the dead blog all these while >.<

It has been long since the last time I posted here. Life has been hectic and I got not time to go online. Wow~ Really sounded like a busy lady right? *giggles* Well, let me update myself here! I just sat for my Mid Semester Examination. Some of the results were out and they are very OK! XD There are a lot of assignments waiting for me and I have to always do them in a rush >.< What to do? All of you know I’m a last-minute doer right? Hehe…

I’ve been learning how to cook! I gave grandma calls to ask her for guidance and I’ve tried cooking a few times. Of course it didn’t taste like grandma’s cooking. I miss her food so much! Plan going to Redang with family was canceled because we were told that our Final Examinations will be postponed. I’m not happy with that at all. I’ll have my first patient this Friday for my Dental Radiology practical. Right now, I am so nervous, yet excited! I’m afraid I couldn’t interpret the roentgenogram taken.

As for relations, Bong and I are friends again. I really hope that he understands I got no feeling for him and that I only treat him as my friend, not more than that! Rubin and I are still quite close. He tells me whenever he has problems and he asked a lot about me. Don’t mistake this; he didn’t call me every night like what he did already. He likes a girl now, my senior. I’m in love right now. He is an Indonesian Chinese. He is now taking his 2nd year studies in the Faculty of Medicine, University of North Sumatera. He is cute! He is caring and he treats me really good! Remember the cute guy I was telling you people here?

You people don’t have to guess. It is HIM! Kelvin Yuwanda! I bet you people never thought I’ll accept a guy so fast right? Yea… I’m feeling the same here. In fact, I was shocked myself how I suddenly am so ADVANCED now. I accepted him. We started our relation last Saturday which was on the 28th March 2009, 2133hours (Medan, Indonesia time). Nobody knows about this yet. Both of us didn’t tell any of our friends yet. I’m not planning to tell my family first because I know they sure will object. Mummy just gave me a call yesterday talking about all these and I’m not happy at all. Kelvin promised to go through all the obstacles with me. He has been planning a lot. He plans about our future, about everything. He is a sensitive guy where he knows every time I’m not happy. I didn’t know how he can feel it. I love him now and I don’t want to lose him.

I can’t wait to go home, back to Malaysia. I miss everybody there!

OUKC? What does it mean?

I had Dental Radiology lab yesterday where we took the radiography photo of first molar of our partner. I took Hendro. His teeth are so small I managed to take 5 teeth in a single x-ray. Drg. Amrin praised my work saying I developed it very well. I was so happy about it. I then went to FK library to pass Chia Teng my shiny cap. She will be using it saying the juniors are doing a fashion show for the dinner. Whatever it is, I’ll watch it tomorrow night.

Bong surprised me last night. It was the first time he came into my room himself. He not only came in. He came in, sat down in front of me and chatted with me! OMG! How can he change so much this semester? I always think he is a nice guy in my 1st and 2nd semester but he changed in the 3rd semester into a horrible guy. Now, the nice guy came back to me but he is not the old nice guy anymore. This guy now is an extraordinary nice and like I don’t know what word I should use to describe him. I just think these 2 semesters he has this drastic change in him, from a nice guy into a horrible, irritating guy and now back to a better guy than before.

I guess it is because my roommate went out of the room last night, leaving me alone in the room and that was why he dare coming in? I really got no idea. I felt that I really don’t know the right way to judge people these days. I don’t know which is good, which is bad, who is good, who is bad. People nowadays can act very well. In front of you they are nice but who knows they will backstab you when you’re not around?

KKIM Unity Charity Night is tomorrow night. I’m looking forward to this dinner. Today, during the break, most of them who went for the charity dinner last year came asking if I will be wearing something like what I wore last year. They were telling, they already checked out all the girls/ladies in that hall filled with 500 guests and said if there was a prize entitled ‘The Sexiest Lady of the Night’, that would be li ting =.= Too bad, I think this year, they will be disappointed lol. I won’t be wearing that short and those so-called ‘OUKC’ clothes. OUKC means all-you-can-see. Syuhada taught me this. *sweats* in fact, come to think of it, I think I didn’t really wear that openly this semester. Maybe because I think I’m fat now *giggles* whatever it is, I’m trying hard to go on diet. My ‘a day a meal’ diet for the previous month failed this month. I managed to lose 2kg last month. This month, I can just hope I don’t gain weight since I’m eating normally again.

Normal day =.=

Today is a normal boring day. I had a crazy lecturer who was angry with our attendance in the class today. Then I had Pharmacology lab which I didn’t help much. I got this phobia. I’m scared to swallow tablets. That was why I’m writing down all the data. My friend took the medicine. I think I’ll be doing the same for the rest of the practical till the end of this semester. There wasn’t time for me for even a meal every Monday.

There is a new guy today messaging me. His name is Kelvin, from FK ’07. He got my number from Arlies and said we actually met few times. I don’t recall knowing or meeting a guy from FK. In fact, I think I didn’t know any guys from FK. I meant Indonesians from FK. Of course I know all the Malaysian Chinese here but not Indonesian Chinese. He is the first from FK. I got to know from ZW that he is a playful boy. What did he mean by saying playful? Playful in like disturbs his friends a lot like what I’m doing or did he actually meant playboy? If it’s ‘playboy’ instead of ‘playful’, it makes me feel that there are a lot of playboys around me. Are all the guys the same? All of them are playboys? Sighs…

Kelvin oh Kelvin

I received message from Hanifa yesterday morning at 630am, asking my help to forward the messages to all the Malaysians in my class to go to the campus at 9am to decorate our stall. We had ‘penutupan porseni’ yesterday. So every class is supposed to have a stall selling stuff. It is something like our old MGSS Open Day or maybe other schools call it Canteen Day. I forwarded that message to 10 people and continue my sleep and woke up at 930am. That was because I received message from Kelvin.

Guess what? This guy wakes up at 730am on Sunday. OMG! That was actually the second he sent me asking ‘you still not awake?’ My alarm rang at 10am. Yea… I didn’t go to the campus at 9. I went there at 1230pm. I thought it would be very crowded. Well, it disappoints me so much! It seemed to me that nobody went there and people went there because we bought the Rp 20,000 coupon. I went there for the same reason. Just thought I shouldn’t waste the coupon I bought, so I went there to spend all the Rp 20,000.

I arrived home at 2pm where I promised Joanne to make up for her. I actually don’t know the right way to make up and in fact, I only made up for myself once. Alright, count it twice if I include my Graduation Night 3 years back, during Form 5. That was the first time; second time was DSC CNY Dinner this year. Then this funny girl gave me a call and asked for my help to do the nail arts for her. Guess who? Karyn Lin. OMG! Why must she be that last minute for every dinner? I was doing my own nails when she called. I only paint my nails, without design due to the short of time.

So Karyn came to my house, borrowed my nail polish. I matched the colour for her so that it matches her sari. While doing her nails, she asked if I know Kelvin and if he is messaging me these days. I didn’t tell a lot about this guy to anybody but of course, I asked a few people about him privately. So I told Karyn honestly that he is messaging me now but we don’t message a lot like many other guys who will message like 24 hours nonstop. Kelvin replies messages very slowly. Speaking of him, he hinted me that he will be asking me out one day in a pretty funny yet obvious way. He was like ‘hmm… I wanted to ask. What should I do if I want to ask Li Ting out for a dinner?’ So I replied ‘Li Ting? Let’s see. If you want to ask her, EASY! Use your MOUTH.’ He, in fact, said ‘harr… must use MOUTH and ask verbally? Cannot use SMS and ask in a written black and white text?’ I think this reply was funny.

Karyn told me that Jun Xiang had been teasing Kelvin. Kelvin had been looking for my number and all of us never thought he finally got it from Arlies. Jun Xiang was telling him exaggeratingly that I have 4 to 5 guys wooing me right now so he told Kelvin that it is really hard to get me. Hearing all these, I was like OMG! How can Jun Xiang simply say things like that?! I don’t have any guys around me now! Alright, so I asked Karyn if Kelvin is coming to the dinner because all this while he was telling me he might not come. Guess I’m really always in a VERY blur-case status in these matters =.= Karyn said Kelvin will be sitting in my table and Kelvin already knew it long ago. I only know it now, few hours before the dinner! OMG! The whole world knows we will be sitting in the same table EXCEPT for me! Frankly speaking, I wondered how he looks. Desi said he has class III malocclusion. Kelvin told me he is short, fat and dark.

I told Joanne to put alarm at 320pm so that I can make up for Joanne and start getting ready for myself that time. I promised Amie to meet her in JB at 4pm. Joanne didn’t put the alarm so I was in a rush. Radha called her suddenly so she went out without make up. Amie came to my house with Rubin and Yoda. I started preparing myself at 340pm so again, LI TING is NOT a punctual girl. I met Amie at 430pm. I was half an hour late. Good thing is I got a very cheap beca fare. I curled my hair for the dinner. I wore the newly bought green dress with the newly bought black belt and earrings. I prefer my look with the black panty hose on but I think I shouldn’t wear the panty hose since I wore it during the last dinner (MCCC CNY Dinner). I was so worried of my own appearance. I think I look bad with the curled hair but many complimented saying I was hot, cute, beautiful… all the good words were used. In fact, none of them were telling I look bad EXCEPT Jun Xiang who said my dark circles are too obvious. Am I really that lack of sleep? Gosh~

We were late to the dinner. Time written on the ticket was 630pm. We arrived at nearly 745pm. Medan people are NOT punctual so worry not, the dinner started at 830pm. The food SUCKS to the max. The performances are no good! I felt boring throughout the dinner actually. I feel I got nobody to talk to. I wonder which is better now. I didn’t sit in Amie’s table in the end. I sat back at my original reserved table. Bong, ZW and KH shifted back to the original table without telling me. I went in with Amie so I sat down with her where Jun Xiang tried to disturb me and Kelvin. I felt boring sitting at this table with Mee San, Natasha, Joey and all. What if I didn’t change table? What will happen if I continue sitting with Amie last night? Will I be as bored?

I finally saw how Kelvin looked. He is so different from all the description I got from my friends. They were telling he is a very playful boy who loves disturbing people but I think he is so shy. He just smiled to me, didn’t dare to talk to me. Jun Xiang wanted me to sit next to Kelvin but in the end I ran away from that table. I sat next to Kok Leong in my original table where towards the middle of the dinner, we were busy taking photos and I didn’t know how I suddenly were shifted, sitting next to Bong. We chatted quite a while and we had a little walk outside the hall. Came back from the walk, I don’t know where the others in the table went. All were scattered finding their friends. Nobody was paying attention to the performances.

Kelvin texted me during the dinner, apologized because he said he didn’t dare talking to me. I went home with Amie, Joanne and Roxanne. Rubin was the driver again. Kelvin texted at the same time, ‘Okay, if you’re sitting your friend’s car then I don’t have to worry anymore. It is raining, don’t get cold and walk in the rain.’ I was like ‘huh? Worry?’ Why should he be worrying of me suddenly? Alright people. Tell me. Is he a ‘new’ guy? I arrived home at 1230am. Kelvin said he will sleep when I’m done cleaning myself and all. I told him not to wait because I’ll be very late. I have to remove my make ups, shower, and wash my hair. That will take very long. He said its okay, he will wait and he wanted me to text him when I’m done so I did as he told.

I messaged him at 1.45am. He gave me a call just to say goodnight and asked if it is okay if he wakes me up today morning at 6am. He sounded so cute last night. This morning, he called me at 6am sharp and this morning still the same cute him! Not only cute, he was so sweet this morning. I’m not in love with him okay. I still don’t know him but I really do think that he is so sweet doing these. The funniest part was that he was trying so hard to wake me up, asking me to get up. I was so lazy in the morning. I felt I got not enough sleep. Guess what makes me sat up straight on my bed? He was like ‘common girl, it’s already 6am. You’ll have class at 7am. You can’t be late. You know you need long time for your shower. Quick! Get up… Are you up yet?’ I was like ‘Hmm’ then he chuckled a little and continued by asking this real shocking yet funny question: Did you dream of me last night? My response was pretty quick. I said: A question like this at this time? I’m not fully awake! What’s the time now? I better go prepare myself. Thanks and bye =.=

Sounded harsh? I think so too. Lol. He replied ‘alright, go prepare yourself! Message me later okay? Tata’ I had classes boringly as usual. I met him in FK. Again, he was so shy like those guys I know from Japan. I was saying hello and he smiled, nodded so shyly like what Naoki and the others did last time. So cute of him! He reminded me to take my lunch but he himself didn’t take his lunch *sweats* We messaged a lot more than the days before. He told me he wanted to know more about me. I told him he is sounded so cute on the phone. He’ll be teaching at 5pm. I guess I’ll take my nap that time. I’m so tired.

KKIM Unity Charity Night went worse than last year. MCCC CNY Auspicious Dinner Charity Gala wins!

The dinner started at 830pm. Feast started at 9pm where by 830pm itself, the waited was telling the drinks were finished so they can only serve us plain water. How GREAT! The food SUCKS to the max. It is just some cheap food like we can get even in the cafeteria in our campus. Fried noodle, rice, tofu, chicken, pudding, drinks, and mushroom soup with garlic bread, these were the food they serve us with Rp 80,000 ticket! Yet, many complained saying MCCC Dinner’s ticket at the price of Rp 88,000 was expensive. They should compare the food we serve and the food they serve MAN! At least we don’t serve plain water and we got shark’s fin soup. That was a contra!

I like the opening ceremony very much. It really shows unity. The other performances were NO good! No good at all! I think the only good shows I watched last night was performances by ’07 Indians. They really dance well. I salute all the Indians in my batch really. They practiced dancing even during exam season. I bet the juniors didn’t practice as much as the seniors.

Too bad, I thought the consul general of Malaysia left our dinner halfway was a bad sign of a no good dinner. What happened last night? He didn’t even watch all. He came only for the food! Almost half of the people in the hall had left the dinner at around 11pm which means they also came for the food. A for the Master of Ceremony, I think we 4 are way better! *giggles*

I hate ASSIGNMENTS and I never thought his feeling for me is DEEPER!

These days I feel strange in myself. I feel like want to know more about him. Him here is my very housemate, the skinny guy next door. Long ago, I knew how much he cares for me but of course not my 3rd semester in Medan. That was terrible speaking of him. This semester, he changed the way I looked at him again. I really wonder which is the real him. He can be very nice and yet he can be horrible. These days he has been treating me good. He helped me a lot and cares for me a lot. He cares for me better now than before. Perhaps I didn’t realize how much he cared until lately?

I joined the so-called Roland Music Concert which was actually a road show, introducing Roland’s new products on keyboards especially. The keyboard player was awesome with his techniques. I envied him. I can never play that way! Before attending the road show in Garuda Plaza Hotel, I had dinner with See Theng, Ethan, Roxanne, Kam Hoong and Bong in Jaya Bangunan. See Theng cooked for us and trust me. She really can cook even though it tasted a little salty but I can complain no more. I don’t know cooking. So we were late to the hotel but the road show had just started by the time we arrived. Everybody went in pairs. I felt awkward if I’m going alone and that was why I actually planned not to go. Bong knew I love music and so he promised me to accompany me there. He looked so tired. He donated blood right before he went out with me.

Others are in pairs. Of course they were sitting together. So did Bong and I. We were quiet at first. I paid attention to the music played, also the way that Italian played music. I don’t know how and when we started talking. This was the first time I felt so happy chatting with him. We finally apologized and forgave each other for everything that happened in the past, which includes how I hurt him, how he treated me last semester, how we both were not considerate at all and also our stubbornness. Toward the end of the road show, he asked me if I received an email from him last semester. He sent it on the last day of the semester but I didn’t remember receiving any unknown email. He said this is fate. If I received it, we might not be talking so happily now.

I never thought all the couples were enjoying the music so much. They were really paying attention to it. It turned out that only we both, the singles, talking to ourselves, care not about the music at all. After enjoying the great music, we went back to Jaya Bangunan. There, we had a surprise birthday party for Kang. As usual, I still feel that I can’t clique well with the people around here. I felt I’m alone there even though there were so many people around me. I didn’t know the reason but it seemed like I only can talk well with See Theng and Roxanne.

There were tons of assignments waiting for me at home. After showering, I continue doing my work until 6 in the morning. I took a cup of coffee which gave me a great nausea throughout the night. Roughly about 4am, Bong woke up to complete his work. There, we messaged each other, chatting, like the old us during our 1st and 2nd semester. Again, I took the risk. I asked him a question I think I shouldn’t ask because I think he will be so shy to answer me. I was wondering why he is treating me so good nowadays. Alright! I admit I am always in a VERY blur-case status when it comes to relation matters. I remember mummy telling me no guys will treat girls good unless he loves her.

So I asked ‘do you still have feelings for me as much as last time, or less, or much more, or not at all?’ Am I stupid enough to ask such a question! Maybe I can’t think well that time when I asked. I was so tired and sleepy. Surprisingly, he answered ‘Honestly, my feelings for you now is in fact, deeper to be compared to last time but I know we are just friends now. I don’t dare to hope more and I don’t dare to ask you for hope. Let time decide for us. Be yourself, be myself. We’ll know what to do one day.’

I woke up late today and then continue with my assignments. I’m happy with myself. I never thought I manage to finish up all the work by myself. I don’t like it when those people fool around wasting their time and wait for my answers to copy and paste it as their work like that. Why must I the one who work and they enjoy themselves? They can sleep and watch movies all day long, while me? Stuck with my laptop, fingers busy moving around the keyboard, typing the journals. Why must I be so DUMB!? I really hate those people! I hate myself this way too =(

Want to say me talking bad about others? Go ahead. I’m sorry AMIE but I can’t help.

I don’t understand people around me well. A very good example can be taken from what happened lately. It was said that things happened these days were so complicated and I was so confused but thank GOD I got a few good friends in my life. One of them spent his time with me, helping me, explaining to me, waking me up from all the confusions. I guessed I didn’t write anything about what happened to my friend these days. I was too busy writing about myself, Rubin and Bong. Well, you might say ‘not Rubin again this time!’ but I’m so sorry. It’s about him.

To be honest, he somehow gave me a little bad impression these days. He told me he likes Amie. I was encouraging him exactly like what I did to all my other friends, encouraging them to go for the girl or the boy they like. On Tuesday night itself, after we (me, Joanne, Amie and him) had dinner in Gardenia, he said he had an hour talk with Amie in his car. He told her he likes her and she gave positive respond. My comment for this scene is like ‘Wow… Rubin, you’re AWESOME! The Awesome One had finally lost to one ordinary guy. You like a girl you knew two days ago and now you already tell her you like her.’ Well, I think this is still not too bad. Greater thing comes later. Amie gave POSITIVE respond! OMG!

Alright! I know I’m very bad to write things about them both here. It is not because I’m jealous or what so ever but I don’t like it when she acted that way. She gave positive respond which means she accepted what Rubin told her about his feelings. If she managed to accept it an hour later after the dinner, then what with the earlier calls and messages to me saying if I don’t go for the dinner, she won’t attend because she didn’t want to have dinner with him but it is all because he forced her to the dinner. I was wondering how can that guy force her?!

I’m rude to use this word. I apologize beforehand. I was BOTHERED by Rubin’s call that very day to get my help to convince Amie to go to dinner. Amie was telling me how sorry she felt for me because she thought I like Rubin which is so NOT! She was saying ‘It is CRAZY! We just knew each other for two days how can he like me?’ when I told her about what Rubin texted me early that morning. Well, they went dating and all on Wednesday which was the day after he told her how he felt, also the third day they knew each other if you want to put that in account.

Yesterday (Thursday) they went out again. Exactly like what Rubin told me, he went to temple every Thursday. So, Amie texted I while waiting for his prayers. Amie’s a Christian. The content of the message was ‘Li Ting, help me! He is going too fast and I don’t know how to tell him.’ I replied ‘Oh? I thought you gave him positive respond the other day? That was what Rubin told me. I don’t know if it is true.’ Guess what she answered? ‘Yea… I did give him positive respond but I never thought he will be this fast.’

I’m so sorry but I really don’t get it here. You gave positive respond 2 days ago which also means 2 days after you know this guy and now you asked for my help which I don’t know what I can do for you 2 days later which also means 4 days after you know this guy. Confusing? I myself am not sure if I’m telling things right. I meant if you think he is going too fast, don’t you think the same when you gave positive respond? I wished them luck but I personally think things that come fast will leave and end fast. I’m not cursing them but I just feel things aren’t right. They are perfect match I say. Both of them are tall, one is pretty, one is handsome. Both can communicate well.

I just wanted to say very sorry to them both that I can’t help them. They made the decision themselves. He told her his feelings. She gave him a positive respond. What can I do as the third party? I can do NOTHING! I’m so sorry, really, because I really don’t want people to misunderstand and think that I don’t want you both to be together and that is why I went and tell Rubin that he is going too fast for you. I’m not going to do that because only you know I’m helping but others will think I’m too busybody to do that. I don’t want anybody to think or assume that I like Rubin anymore. So I guess it is way better if you have a talk with him yourself.

It seemed like See Theng found a guy who acted the same like Rubin. That guy asked her out and told her to bring friends. Of course, Ethan is not happy with it. See Theng asked me to accompany her on Monday going out with that guy. She’ll call Roxanne too. With these two girls around, I think I’ll be safe. Let’s worry not about this new guy. I’m not interested in knowing any more new Indonesian Chinese guys right now. I have too many assignments for myself now that I can’t finish them. Mid semester examination will be saying ‘hello’ to me in another 3 weeks time. I must work hard. I’ve been fooling around.

I don’t want him to be SAD because of me

I got so excited every time I have gizi class but today is EXCEPTIONAL. This lecturer is boring! He taught us about carbohydrates. It is more or less alike our old chemistry class back in the school. I had IMT II lab which is another boring thing to do of the day. Bong was here again to talk to me in the lab. Let me recall, I think this is the first time he did so. Then I thought of asking Joanne to have lunch together somewhere where before I asked her, she told me she will have meeting with Prof. Haslinda. The practical ends half an hour earlier. I thought I can have more time online in FK library but who knows all the PCs are occupied. So I went home.

I got down from the public transport at Joko Solo as usual and there I might Cathrine, Tyson, Henny and Rudy. I joined them for lunch and did some laundry when I got home. Blackie said goodbye to this world at 1330 hours. I wondered if my group mates and I gave Blackie an overdose injection. Blackie was so energetic last night but dead harden this noon. I quickly messaged Uma and told her about Blackie. I went to class and waited for the lecturer. This is not the first time. This lecturer is always late. Thank GOD I brought ‘blaze’ with me. ‘Blaze’ is a monthly newsletter by PMUSU. I bought it this morning as they wrote something about MCCC CNY Auspicious Dinner Charity Gala and also DSC CNY Dinner. I guess they copied the article we inserted in the booklet for guest. Columns for DSC were so lousy, no article, only four pictures posted.

If I’m not mistaken, I told Bong in the class that I already posted the blogs for the past week using his laptop last night. I don’t know which blog made him moody and sad again. I don’t know to say if I’m worried or what. I just know I feel bad. I feel very bad indeed. I felt that I brought a lot of sorrow to him. I felt every time he is unhappy, the things will sure be related to me. Am I again, sensitive or what? I felt so sorry I don’t know what I did this time. All I know from his friend is that his mood changed drastically after reading my blog. He went out to his friend’s place and not home till now. I wonder how he is feeling now. Hopefully he feels much better after his nap.

I don’t know what feeling do we call this =.=

Hmm… how should I get this started? At first, I thought things are really complicated but after thinking over a few times, it looked as easy as ABC. It sounded funny too. The story began long ago. It is just that I didn’t realize it. I was so confused with my own feelings the past week perhaps because of others’ comments on me and my new friend.

It is Wednesday today. I think I can make good decision when I’m in a very ‘clean and clear’ status myself. What happened yesterday? Let’s see. I thought I said I’m a little down with what Zhong Wei told Bong to do at first but I think he is right. Now?! I have another kind of points of view towards things in front of me. Think I’m weird? Call me weirdo I don’t really care.

What I guessed previously were all right! Rubin is going for Amie is right. He called Amie that night because he didn’t call me. It is very true too! Yesterday morning he messaged me as usual asking what I doing but of course after meeting Amie, the way he messaged me, different. I had ‘Tooth Conservation’ class in the morning continued by ‘Removable Partial Denture’ which was fun as usual. Everyone in my group prepared so many questions for the presenters but too bad, Prof. Haslinda never let us asked much this time. Perhaps she is afraid conditions will go as bad as the previous week where almost everybody in my group attacked the others with questions! *giggles* Then I had ‘Dental Public Health II’. That cute lecturer came in again.

After all the classes, I went to the library with Bong. This is the second time I went into the library. Yea… I always admit I’m a lazy student. Imagine I’m here for more than 18 months and I only entered library twice. Great huh? So we were chatting quite normal for the first time =.= I meant it! I really meant it because usually he didn’t talk to me. I’m the one who talked to him all the time. Well, I was a little rude I’m so sorry for that. I was messaging all the while walking to the library. Don’t simply throw guesses alright? There are few people messaging me at the same time. See Theng and Amie were messaging me too.

See Theng wanted to meet me at night and have a little chit-chat if Ethan got better. Ethan has been sick since Valentine’s Day. So what happened in the library? I was following Bong blindly. It seemed like he knows all the way so well. He knows where to check the books, which shelves and all. I suddenly feel I was like so dumb to think of looking shelf by shelf. Somehow I think the information we got from the system is not helping at all. There is NOTHING on the directed shelf. Bong found a book for Periodontology but we didn’t borrow it in the end. I didn’t know I have to activate my student card in the library so I can’t borrow books there until 2 days after the activation. Bong’s card was activated but he didn’t bring some I don’t know what document so he also can’t borrow the books there. Sigh… why the library must cause so many problems to us who wanted to borrow books?

Alright, all the while in the library, I received some surprising messages. One of them was Rubin telling me that he dreamt of Amie on the Sunday night. I don’t really believe on what people call ‘girls’ intuition’ but yesterday itself I suddenly feel girls really got those power to feel and predict stuffs. Exactly like what I guessed, Rubin is really going for Amie! This is yet, not the main point. What surprises me was I smiled reading the message received from Rubin. All these while people have been telling that I really looked like I like Rubin, I had a crush on him, some even said I love him. I denied all the while but I myself was confused. I myself didn’t know whether those confusing feelings in me are meant to be ‘the feeling of liking Rubin.

I didn’t realized I smiled replying his message until Bong asked ‘why you funny, smiling to your phone while typing message? Who is that?’ Then only I realized I was actually smiling. I started to think hard about it. See, I got very happy every time my friends tell me they found their true love, they know who they love, they know who they like, and they have girlfriends or boyfriends. At this very moment, all the questions bothering me were answered. Question on whether I like him or not? It is a big NO! If I like him, I would be damn sad by that time right? But in fact, I wasn’t only happy for him. I encouraged him and told him to call Amie out that very night itself which was last night.

On the way back from library, I thought of going to the pharmacy to get myself some eye drops. I think I got eye infection again. I wonder why is my skin and my eyes so weak? They easily get infected. Bong said he is going to Carrefour and that he’ll help me get those things I need. It felt like the old him is really HOME! The old him has back and is now in front of me again. He has been really nice to me this semester. I got home and got a call from Amie. I told her all about Rubin’s message and made her promised me that she won’t treat me, Rubin and Bong differently after what I told him. She still thinks that I like Rubin. She kept convincing me to tell what is kept in my heart but there is really nothing I kept in there. I wished them luck and all and then I had a long call back to Malaysia. I bet you people out there, every one of you will say I’m a little crazy to do that. I called a friend I knew online. He is also the best friend of one of the guys I once loved. He has been helping a lot in sparing his time for my problems. He is a nice friend.

I talked to him for about 2 hours. It costs me RM19. Cheap right?! *giggles* I learnt a lot from this call. He told me a lot of stuffs. He taught me the right way to analyze which is right, which is wrong and told me what to tell people, what not to tell. He reminded me to choose the right person to tell the right thing. I’ll be in dead meat if I tell things to the wrong person. Thanks a lot for the lesson, 4 aka leng zai! *giggles* Alright I’m not sure if he is leng zai. You can check him out, his blog on your right. Click his name there.

I slept after his call. I felt so tired. I was woken up by Rubin again, telling me to go for dinner. I thought I already told him I’m not going for the dinner with him and Amie because I don’t want to spoil their time together. Somehow in the end I went out with both of them to Gardenia because I told Rubin I must come home early. I got assignments waiting for me.

NO MORE Rubin!

Alright! As written above, NO MORE Rubin! I bid farewell to this guy in my life. Guess what happened today! I was sleeping when Rubin called me. I was so blur I didn’t know this cute guy asked me out. I remembered he told me to go for dinner in the call but I thought he just reminded me to take my dinner that’s all. Sigh… Why must I be so blur that time. The next thing was he asked for Bong’s number. I messaged him Bong’s number.

I got up from my bed, went for a pee and washed my face. I got out of my room, thought I better tell Bong that I already gave Rubin his number but nobody was at home except for Loong. I took my dinner, bread with tuna spread and I’m full till now. I checked my Blackie later after my dinner. Oh yea… Blackie is a guinea pig I brought home from Pharmacology lab. My group mates named it Blackie because it is black and white in color. I guess it is dying soon after two injections in an hour time: panthotal and caffeine.

The next thing I know was Bong is having dinner with Rubin. Not really dinner. They had a talk, only two of them! Once I knew about it from Amie, my heart sank again. That showed Rubin contacted her like so close. I guess tonight he called her because he didn’t call me tonight. Am I a pessimist? Whatever! I really don’t know how to judge thing anymore. I really wonder what these two guys were talking. Are they encouraging each other to come for me or what? I’m confused, nervous, scared and worried at the same time. I was chatting online at the same time using Bong’s laptop. I was lucky 4 was there for me. I chatted with him and he said he think I’m not in love with Rubin so I don’t have to worry.

He asked a very good question: Do you think you’re now obsessed over Rubin now because of his personality or merely his appearance? This is indeed a very good question! I am very sure. His appearance took 70% of it because I think I still don’t know much about him. Bong came home and told me what happened between them both. He looked so happy when he is back. He smiled all the way. I never see his mouth closed *sweats* He said once he opened the door, Rubin asked ‘are you serious with li ting or you just like her?’ Bong answered ‘of course I’m serious with her. I know my feeling and I knew her feeling so we are only best friend now. I won’t force her. I only want her to be happy.’

Rubin explained to him saying he is not wooing me and told Bong not to worry. Zhong Wei told me that he taught Bong to say ‘I’m courting Li Ting’ if Rubin ask him anything about me. I think Zhong Wei really knows how to help his friend. These words really will scare other guys off. Seeing you answered so confidently, I can’t think of any guy will want to fight with him for me *as if there are guys who would fight for me sweats* Zhong Wei also told me honestly that he didn’t hope Rubin is into me because he thinks it will be difficult for me. I’m a Malaysian, he is an Indonesian. It will be more suffering if Rubin is going to Jakarta.

To be frank, I’m not really happy with what Zhong Wei told me because I think as a friend, he is doing too much but after thinking twice, I think he is quite right. I slowly found out that Zhong Wei and Bong are two good friends. Mummy called me and told that she is going to send me money. I told her about Rubin. I told her I went out almost every day with him last week. Mummy reminded me to take good care of myself and also protect myself because Rubin is a new guy. She told me not to trust him so much. Since I think Rubin is not going to call me out or even message or call me already, I think I don’t really have to consider much on mummy’s advice. Anyway, I regretted once not listening to my parents (R’s case). I’ll always bear in mind on what they told me. Not only mummy. 4 also told me the same thing. I bet 4 must be a very good friend too. I wonder how he looks in person. I’ve never met him.

Tired!

Alright guess what! I talked to Rubin on the phone till 7.30am this morning and went to bed only that time and wake up at 10am to prepare myself for the lunch in Grand Angkasa at 11.30am for celebrating the success of our MCCC CNY Auspicious Dinner Charity Gala. There I sat with Amie where I thought I will stick myself close to Zhong Wei and Bong at first. Amie asked me to join her in the church at 2pm. I accompanied her there since she was alone. I thought it would be interesting because it was said that there will be special events due to Valentine the day before. We were late for church. We arrived at 3pm.

In the church, Rubin called me but I rejected his call. Common, I can’t answer phone calls in such a holy place right? Everybody in the church was like so concentrating to the talks and all. I messaged telling him that I’m with Amie in the church. I was there because Amie was alone so I accompany her. He then bought 2 tickets for both me and Amie without informing me. I felt so sorry again I came out of church late and he was so nice waiting for me outside the church. After watching ‘Hunting Party’, we went for a bowling session. I don’t feel like going at first. I felt so tired but since Amie was saying let’s go so we went. This is the first time I played bowling. Nah… I think this is the second time. I forgot when the first was. I only remembered the ball almost fell on my toe during my first time. What about this time? Improved? It sucks! I felt so embarrassed. The first 4 games, I hit nothing! The last game, I managed to hit 9!

After bowling, we went to the next door, also in Perisai Plaza. The guys are all playing pool. I was so boring and honestly I was a little jealous I hope I didn’t show it out on my face. I was jealous of Amie to be frank. She can get along with the guys so well unlike me. I still have the same problem. I don’t know the ways to socialize with guys. I see Rubin can get along very well with Amie. He said she looked like Korean and that she is pretty. On the other hand, he said I looked like Japanese. I think somehow during dinner, I showed my ‘so bored’ face out obviously. I was sitting at the end of the corner where nobody noticed me because all the guys were talking to Amie only.

Rubin messaged and asked if I am bored. I told him I am just a little tired. So he replied ‘after this, go home directly’. So after that he sent us home where he has another 2 friends in his car too. One of his friends is sitting next to me. If I’m not mistaken, his name is Jackson. He asked me what course I’m taking. I said ‘dentistry’ he was like ‘oh’, continued by asking Amie the same question. Amie didn’t listen so I told him she is ‘dokter umum’ he got so shocked! All of them said they thought she was taking accountancy or economics because her face looked like she is a secretary because she is pretty. Me in contrary, is having dentist look.

Arrived home, I received message from Rubin asking for Amie’s number. The whole night with Rubin and his friends, I didn’t feel nice and comfortable actually. I always wanted to be the centre of attention but tonight I’m the one who held the position where nobody noticed me. The moment reading Rubin’s message, I felt Rubin is going for Amie. I think he won’t mind about the age matter since his ex was 3 years older. I gave him Amie’s number and wished Amie luck.

2009 Valentine’s Day

We were on the phone again and this time was really different! I slept while talking to him. I felt so sorry but I’m really tired. I think I got not enough sleep these days especially after the MCCC Dinner and after knowing this Rubin guy. I went to campus looking so tired and sleepy. I received chocolates from Desi and Fransisca. I was asking so many people’s help to get to know those entertainment companies in Taiwan and there I got reply from Chian Yaw saying she is actually having Brother Andy’s email address! Andy!! You know? BATO’s director! Not only BATO’s, also LOLLIPOP and HEY GIRL! But to be honest, I’m afraid this might be the fake Andy. Well, we can’t trust things online that much.

I slept dead once arriving home and woke up only when Rubin called me. He asked Bong out for movie first then he talked to me as if he is so confident that I’ll go out with him. So the plan was going out with both Rubin and Bong on 2009’s Valentine. I asked Bong’s help to message Andy. The cinema was full so we canceled watching movie and went for karaoke instead. We had dinner (steamboat) in a restaurant named Lucky King (Rubin’s family business). I felt so bad. I think I’m in between Rubin and Bong. I don’t know who to talk to.

See Theng, Ethan, Roxanne and Kam Hoong joined us for the karaoke session. Everybody slept in the room except for me, Rubin and Roxanne. I felt so bad again, calling friends out but they showed such attitude to Rubin. During the karaoke session, when others are singing, Rubin indirectly told me he is a good kisser. We were sitting next to each other that time. He managed to tie a ribbon using his tongue. That was what people say a good kisser can do! He asked me if I can do the same. I don’t think so. I’ve never tried. I bet it must be really hard using tongue but I do think that I would like to try and practice!

We arrived home at 2.30am. He called me again and we were chatting until 7.30am. We were talking about so many things. He told me about the girl he liked. He said that girl he liked made him changed his mind, stop being model, which is something he really like to do, like it better than business but in contrary, I’m the one who motivated him to be celebrity. I never thought I can manage to motivate somebody! I told him all about Bong, about he liked me.

Time seems to fly when it is with HIM

I chatted with Rubin until 3am again last night. Thank GOD I managed to wake up this morning. I attended Prosthodontic class this morning, continued by Dental Radiology practical. On the way from my class to the lab, I called Rubin to wake him up and recorded the conversation between both of us as promise to show him that he really need a lot of calls to wake him up. I called him 4 times altogether. This PIG is getting lazier. The first two times I called him, he didn’t even utter a sound when he answered my call. The third and forth call were like normal him, answering but didn’t realized he answered me.

We practiced putting films into our friend’s mouth and developing film in the lab. After lab, I went to FK Pendopo, thought I want to do those ‘inai’ on my hand by KKIM but too bad the girl doing is not there so I bought some Indian snacks which costs me Rp5500, I paid Rp6000 so the extra Rp500 were donated to the orphans since they don’t have change. I think what I did is so bad, as if I donated insincerely. I came home, looking for the Orthodontics book for my Oral Biology presentation entitled ‘Orthodontics effects towards soft oral tissues’.

Rubin was not messaging me a lot. He said he is in a bad mood again. Then he stopped messaging me like 2 hours. Suddenly I received message from him again telling me to call him. I thought he might need help or perhaps a listener so I called him. We were chatting for a while and there is blackout again so he knew the electricity went off because I was complaining the hot weather. He then came and fetch me by his motorbike to Yoda’s house. He said Yoda is not free and that he hopes I can teach him, representing Yoda and that he’ll send me home by evening.

So I went to Yoda’s house by motorbike. He laughed at me all the way saying I look funny with the helmet on. We were in Yoda’s house until 9.30pm which means we were together for 6 hours. He told me he already decided not to do business. He wanted to be a celebrity. I suggested him to go Taiwan. I think I have to be a little responsible. Since I’m the one who is suggesting, I think I should help him in finding ways for him so that it is easier for him to go to Taiwan, working in this field. We played piano; I taught him theory and chatted for very long. Alvin called me when I was with him. Alvin wanted me to go out with him and Joanne to Hotel Grand Swissbelle. I rejected him. Rubin was asking why.

Many guessed that Rubin will ask me out tomorrow. I don’t really think so. I still think he doesn’t have feelings for me. Why would he ask me out for Valentine? Everybody is so busy with their plans for tomorrow. Me? I might spend another year of lonely Valentine.

Everybody is in Valentine’s mood

(3.15PM)
Xiao Chuan and the gang did some very stupid thing today. They wanted us to sign a letter informing MCCC not to interfere the matters in FKG and that we, students from FKG won’t help and involve ourselves in any events organized by MCCC. Gosh! How could I sign that?! Without events like this recent big dinner, my life would be in such a bore in Medan! I really don’t understand what the use of signing that letter is. In addition, they stupidly typed that letter in Chinese writings. WTH?! If they wanted to make it formal, they should type it in English or Malay so that even our very own bananas understand what the purpose of the letter is. DS and the gang are really having no BRAINS! Alright, I don’t call him DS, my housemates call him that way. DS means Down syndrome but I think it is bad, as if they are looking down on those people with Down syndrome. I still think FROG suits Xiao Chuan more. I’m so sorry if you’re reading this, Xiao Chuan. Please don’t get offended!

Rubin was in bad mood today. That was what he told me. It is because of the Jakarta trip. It is canceled again and so, he will be here in Medan these coming 4 days. He asked if I can go out tonight with him and his cousin to Sun Plaza, just for hanging out, walk around. Again, he asked me to bring my friends along. I told him Joanne will come with me tonight. He said he doesn’t want to be the only guy. Well, I don’t know how to help him about this.

After class, I went to Sun Plaza with Desi and Fransisca to help them in choosing presents for their boyfriends. Oh… I meant Fransisca’s ex (Alex) and Desi’s current boyfriend (Van Antony). They both decided to buy watch for them. I’ve helped them in designing chocolates. They planned to melt the chocolates and shaped them up again. I wish them luck for this Saturday. Sigh… I wonder how I will spend my Valentine this year. Will it be another lonely Valentine like past years? I’m hoping for something different and the relation is serious this year but it is in another 2 days time, I think I can’t hope more. I can’t think of any possible guy.

(12.28AM)
Rubin skipped his class and he called me once he awake telling me he just woke up. Sometimes I do think on why he told me all these like when he wakes up and all. I am nobody to him. I went out with Rubin, Joanne, Bong, ZW, and Vera (Rubin’s cousin). We went to temple first. I prayed for my own health, studies, and relation. After that we went for dinner at roadside =.= then from there we fetch Vera and off we head to Sun Plaza. Vera is a very nice girl. I think I talked too much today.

Why do people think that Rubin likes me? I think it’s IMPOSSIBLE

(4.29PM)
I got some updates on Rubin. He is a dancer too. Which kind of dancer? HIP HOP! He is a b-boy OMG! That is so cool right?! He gave me a call last night for chit-chatting again. This time, it was shorter. I kept telling him I wanted to sleep because I’m afraid I couldn’t wake up in the morning again. So we chatted for only one and a half hour. He was like my hokkien language tutor lol. He talked to me in Hokkien and expected me to reply him in Hokkien. OMG! How can I do that?

This morning I slept back after switching off both alarms. Thank GOD Bong called me to wake me up. We both then messaged for a while in the class since the lecturer was absent. He said he felt that Rubin is courting me. OMG! Is he for real?! He is not the first to say so. See Theng was the first, he was the second. I wondered what made them think so. If you ask me ‘would I like to be his girlfriend if he asks so?’ I think right now I might say NO even though I’m so obsessed over him because I think I still don’t know him yet. We only know each other for one week. How can this happen?

He is so good looking and there are so many girls out there who are so pretty. I bet he won’t choose me. I’m way too short for him. I am only 150cm but he is 178cm. I remembered he said I’m cute that night during the dinner but of course, as a guy, they always compliment girls during dinners or occasions like that right? Even though he told me he likes cute girls but I don’t think I’m in his list. Felicia is way better than me. She is tall, pretty and smiles always! That was what Rubin told me. He likes girls who are cute, friendly and MOST importantly, smiles always because he said when he sees her smile, he’ll be happy. I think he doesn’t like girls who make-up a lot because he criticized Yako so much when he viewed my brother’s profile in Friendster.com

See, I really don’t think I’m in his list! He has got loads of good stuff with him. Me? Incomparable! Even though I will be damn happy if I have such good looking boyfriend but I still don’t think we both can be in those relation. Perhaps it might be better if we stay as good friends, but we will never know what will happen. We can’t predict future! Kam Hoong was funny enough to think that I put Rubin’s photo as my hand phone’s screen saver. He had mistaken Bato by Rubin. Speaking of BATO, it has been long since the last time I watched BBT. I miss him so much! I miss watching his popping!

(Thurs, 1AM)
I slept at 7pm. I felt tired. I woke up 2 hours later when Rubin called. Rubin hasn’t messaged the whole afternoon I thought he might stop messaging already. I also told myself ‘li ting, stop dreaming, he is not for you!’ He only messaged a little in the morning today and few messages after his class, telling me he is not in luck this year. As usual, I asked him for the time when he called me at 9pm. He asked me back ‘why every time I call you, your first question is what the time now is?’ I ignored the question. I asked him if he is not happy today. He sounded a little different.

He told me he is going to Thailand with his friend maybe in the month of March or April. He’ll be paying for his friend’s plane fare since he needs his friend to accompany him. He said he’ll be there maybe for only two days and a night, just for some prayers so that his luck will change. It shows how much he is into prayers and all. I’m not so into it! Then we discussed about going to Pulau Redang in June. My responsibility now is to check out the package price in Malaysia. He said he might call around 3 to 4 of his friends to join the trip to P. Redang. After going to Redang, I’m supposed to bring him around since I have car.

He asked me out this Sunday to Pantai Cermin because I said I haven’t been there. Again, he asked me to bring friends there. I bet he is a guy having same character as me. We love to be around with friends, places which have many people, crowded, celebrations, parties and things like that. I think he scared to be lonely, like me. So he wanted me to call another 6 people because his car can fit 8 people. Somehow, the trip to Pantai Cermin this Sunday is canceled because MCCC will have dinner this Sunday night to celebrate the success of the dinner done last Saturday night.

Rubin told me to wake him up at 11pm. He said he wanted to rest for a while. Before hanging up his phone, he reminded me to take my dinner. I think it sounded a little funny. He always reminds me to take dinner, while I kept reminding him to go for shower. So I called him at 11.15pm. He was awake, not sleeping, said he was online. I guess he was gaming because he said he’ll call me back in a while so for the meanwhile, he told me to complete my assignments. He then called at 12.30am which I thought he won’t call already since it is already so late. He asked what time I am going to bed. I’m not so sure about it, perhaps in an hour time, I said. He then told me he is very tired and said he’ll go sleep now and that I don’t have to worry because he already showered and washed his face.

Bong messaged me and told me that he still has feelings for me but he didn’t hope any return from me. He just hopes I’m happy, that’s all. I told Sik Mei about Rubin. She viewed his profile and said he definitely is good looking but not too good till we can say he is very handsome. She said he looks like Korean. I think it all because of the way he dresses. Sik Mei reminded me that look comes second. What comes first is his character. She also gave her opinion. She said she thinks he can be a very nice friend, but not a good boyfriend. What does this mean? Is it all because of his look? Is she afraid that he might have a lot gossips with other girls and hurt his own girlfriend indirectly that way, exactly like what he himself is worrying right now? Once again, I must declare that, all my best friends are really nice and good to me! I appreciate them all and I miss them so much!

Disturbed by Mr. Rubin

I didn’t manage to wake up in the morning yesterday for the first time in Medan. I think I’m sick. Zuo Loong said I’m sick because I was with Rubin the whole day the day before yesterday. Craps =.= I skipped Periodontology class. I called Rubin to wake him up. He asked me to do so the night before we both slept. I forgot he wanted me to wake him up at 7.30am so I called him at 7am. He answered my phone and I talked to him so I thought he was awake. I slept back and again I didn’t manage to wake up for lab. Thank GOD Rubin gave me a call to disturb me. He teased me saying I sleep like a pig. I was like ‘so did you!’ He asked why I said so. I told him about the call I gave him in the morning. Guess what! He didn’t remember talking to me in the morning and said I was dreaming *sweats*

Rubin asked me if I wanted to go to Cemara Asri yesterday for ‘chap go meh’ celebration. There will be programs and fireworks there starting 8pm. He told me to ask my other friends too. I asked but no one seemed interested in going out once I said Rubin is a guy. I myself wanted to go so much. I wanted to see how the people here celebrate and I didn’t celebrate the last day of New Year in Malaysia before so I think this might be a very good experience.

Zhong Wei at the same time asked me to join him and Vanijah for dinner. He said Bong will come too. Zhong Wei seemed to really like her. Here, I wish them luck! Vanijah in the end said she is having headache and so she can’t come out. So, we changed our plan, we asked Rubin out for dinner at Obonk. Rubin came to my house to drive us out after his class. I introduced them all. We had dinner, chatting happily. Both Zhong Wei and Bong laughed at us both bananas.

Arrived home, I gave Danny a call and there we chatted for an hour. He has got a girlfriend right now named Evelyn, a year younger than me, also from Ipoh, studying with him in Aussie now. So far, I’m the only person who knows about their relations. Danny thinks this relation won’t last long since he is graduating and all. After talking to him, Rubin called and guess how long we were on the phone. We chatted for 4 hours! It was 3am when we both stopped talking.

This is the longest record ever I’ve been chatting on the phone with someone! He told me all about his ex, the reasons why he didn’t continue as a model, also why he didn’t sign the contract with the company in Jakarta to be an actor. Then he asked about my ex and all. He told me he likes cute girls, not pretty girls. He likes cute girls with smile and that girl must be friendly. I felt so tired this morning I slept only around 3 hours. I told See Theng about him. Ru Xian was so excited. She even asked how come Rubin only asked me out.

I personally think he asked me out just as friends. He wanted to know more friends but the others (See Theng and Ru Xian) think he has feeling for me. How can it be?! We only know each other for a week! OMG! Speaking of him, he really looked like Daniel Wu, the Hong Kong artist. I felt so tired I slept at 3pm, set my alarm clock at 5pm so that I can take another bath and go dinner with Zhong Wei, Vanijah and Bong. 3.38pm, Mr Rubin the ‘boy boy’ (that’s what his family call him) called me and disturbed again telling it is already 6pm. OMG!

I really wonder if he has got nothing better to do. After I’m wide awake disturbed by him, he told me to wake him up at 4.45pm. See, he wanted me to wake him up, that is why he woke me up WTH! I called him 6 times altogether to wake him up. He is a PIG!

My day spent with RUBIN

I woke up at 10am in the morning. I thought I would wake up later since I slept at 4am (was messaging with Rubin throughout the night). I changed the water in the tank like it was my duty every week *grrr* Bahh… After showering, while reading the meassage sent to me by Rubin, I received call from See Theng. She sounded so unhappy with the dinner last night (MCCC CNY charity dinner). While talking to her on the phone, I put my clothes into the washing machine for cleaning.

We were talking so long until her credit went off! Right after I hung up his phone, Rubin called in and asked if I’m awake, showered, and took my breakfast. He was calling to inform me that he is coming to my house to bring me out. So, I went out with Rubin today together with Zheng Kang, CK, and Liang Jie. We went for lunch at a shop nearby Sun Plaza. The chicken rice there was damn delicious! I took so much of soybean products today. I drank a pack of soybean milk I bought from Brastagi Supermarket. I drank a glass of soybean milk again during lunch. Guess what! I took another glass of soybean milk and tau fu fa for dinner! It is healthy but so fattening!

After having lunch, we walked to Sun Plaza. Rubin’s friend told him that there is dancing, singing and modeling competition. Today’s program was modeling but we think it was boring. Rubin told me that he participated in this competition last year. He didn’t win though. Guess what?! See, he is HOT right? He is actually one of Indonesia’s national models. I didn’t know that! No wonder he is so damn HOT! Wow, I really never thought I would know such a person. At last, my wish came true. I always wanted one of all these celebrities to be my friend and see now, there is RUBIN!

Then, we actually planned to go for bowling but CK didn’t seem to be interested in it so we went to K2 KTV at Jl. Multatuli. We sang for 2 hours. Hopefully my voice didn’t go that bad. Zheng Kang’s voice was quite good. I think Liang Jie was not bad too but he didn’t dare to sing it out. He shouted for most songs. CK was a rapper. He can rap for all the songs. Rubin’s voice… *giggles* he can only sing low pitch music like me. After KTV, Rubin exchanged his car with his sister. Then he kindly sent Zheng Kang to Petula. Rubin at the same time asked me if I’m going out with him after sending the others back. Maybe I can call my other friends since he got his big car back already.

I messaged Ru Xian, See Theng, Amie, Joanne and Bong. All of them are going for a dinner in Hotel Novotel Soechi. I was like ‘why got dinner nobody tell me!’ I told Rubin that everybody is having ‘acara’ tonight. He quickly asked why they went out without me. What can I do? I can just say, ‘they thought I’m going home late so they didn’t tell me about the dinner.’

Rubin is caring enough to think of that it will be dangerous for me to be home alone. So he brought me out for dinner at Tong’s. It is a fantastic place for dinner! The soybean milk is marvelous! While waiting for the food, we played those black and white chess. It was fun the moment inside Tong’s. Seriously, it was a whole lot of fun! The feeling is definitely different from those dinners I had with Albert. I like the designs in Tong’s. They prepared so many games for their customers. They even prepared a grand piano. So we both bet while playing the chess. The one who lost, have to play a song. No I should be saying it this way. I’m supposed to play two songs if I lost because I already passed all 8 grades of ABRSM while he only plays a song if he lost because this October he will be sitting for his first ABRSM exam. In the end, he played a song and I played two songs. There were so many people there, Rubin was like so nervous while playing and he looked damn cute like little kids finding for the keys. Wee~ I’m so obsessed over him now I got no idea why.

He treated me for dinner and sent me home. Arrived home, I was on the phone with mummy for half an hour telling her how people scolded me last night during the dinner. Also, I told her all about the nails problem. Mummy advised me not to do for others for the next dinner. Then Zhong Wei came into my room, gave me the photos we took last night. I meant those photos taken using his camera. Then we both chatted about everybody, about what I did today. Bong joined us for a while. Rubin started messaging again and asked me if I could wake him up at 7.30am. OMG! Out of all people, why chose me? *think hard*

Malaysian Chinese Cultural Club Chinese New Year Auspicious Dinner Charity Gala 2009

I am very happy today! Miracle had just happened once again. About 2 days back, we only sold 130 tickets which made us all trembled. We cut down the tables with Grand Liberty from 50 to 40 which means cutting down our target from 500 guests to 400 guests. Guess what happened today? We got 530 guests! OMG! Amazing right?! We managed to sell those 390 in just two days!

I wasn’t really satisfied with the dinner actually. I think last year was better than this year. Maybe my personal performance wasn’t that good especially the game sessions which I don’t think is game at all. It all went so dull due to the timing problem. We were supposed to start the dinner at 7pm but we started it at 8.30pm. Many things happened in between. I got erm… sort of scolded by Swee Luo. She is not happy with the seats given to her and so she came and complains to me, hoping I manage to change a place for her.

The booklet came real late; we distribute it only when the dinner is already half way through. Piano tuning done at 5.30pm which caused us got no time to practice. Anyway, I heard from few people including Joanne, Albert Pangtono, and Rubin saying I did very well. I smiled widely, playing happily! Thanks to all! Most of the performances were canceled too! My duet performance included.

Many complimented that tonight’s dinner was great. Albert said so. Rubin said so and added especially the way I conducted the programs, the way I being MC. He also said I’m like damn cute today! I was like so happy. Imagine a HOT guy like him say you’re cute. Hey, not many will say that wey… Bong also said I looked gorgeous in both dresses. Guess wat?! I took photo with Rubin and he asked me out, but not me alone. I’m going out with him tomorrow with Zheng Kang and Liang Jie.

All-in WINS the pot!

These days are tired. I meant it! TIRED! It has been long since I last felt so tired. Tired of even to talk. I didn’t go out for ticket selling last night but as usual throughout the week, I’ve been coming home late. Yesterday I went piano practicing. Many things happened last night. HOT Rubin was chatting with me like crazy last night! I told him that his HOT and he was like ‘what do you mean by hot’. OMG! That sounded so cute of him! Alright, I might be a little off control but forgive me. It is hard to see someone like having his look in Medan.

I managed to talk to the ’05 seniors about our dinner. Kak Sheri was like ‘why is it that now only you inform me about it? It is only in another 2 days time! But anyway, I’ll think about it. I might come with Kak CheChe. We’ll try to call our friends along.’ That is so nice of her! Kak CheChe is an Indonesian and she is very pretty! Harry Halim had been helpful too! He gave me one of his friends number, thinking his friend who has the same name as him, might be interested in our dinner.

Climax was here at night. Kam Hoong rushed into my room last night, telling me an account about what happened in Petula (the juniors’ hostel). Chuan went ‘washing’ the juniors’ brain again. You might think I’m talking bad about Chuan but he really made me mad last night. We were working so hard so that we won’t be losing money, so that more people will join us in our dinner but look at what he is doing especially what he said. He told the juniors that they shouldn’t join this dinner and must let us know it is our wrong to do such big dinner. He said our target of getting 500 guests this year is too much and he wanted us to regret doing this. I got no idea why the hell he want to make us ‘regret’! In fact, I think going around places promoting like this is quite enjoyable. See I got to know more people! I gained experience!

Forget about that frog Down Syndrome (that’s what everybody in my house calls him). Today is a SUPER GREAT day! We manage to sell off 100 tickets this bright morning! I never thought we will be able to make it through. Even though our target was actually 500 but I think 410 at this time is more than enough. At least we are earning money already. I am proud that I’m helping in this dinner. I don’t like it seeing so many people folding up their hands doing nothing.

I went to Brastagi Supermarket again for piano practicing. I received message from Auntie Joan saying she just extracted her teeth and it was damn painful even the analgesic couldn’t help. By the way, I’ll have two performances tomorrow. There is a short performance as opening ceremony after the lion dance while the other one will be in the middle of the dinner. Well, my plan for tomorrow is very packed. I’ll have class in the morning from 8am to 12pm. I’ll need to make a run to FK to confirm on the tickets sold at the booth where we sell tickets. Then 1pm I’ll have meeting with the other MC at Grand Liberty. I don’t know if the meeting will be long but all I know now is that the piano will be sent to the restaurant at 1pm. So if it takes 2 hours for tuning, I can only test it at 3pm. Then I’ll come home with See Theng, Roxanne and Amie at 4pm.

Arrived home, I’ll take a shower and then out to See Theng’s place for hair-do and make-up. Done there, I’ll go to Grand Liberty for this important night with them. Hopefully everything will go well there. Also, hopefully, I’ll have enough time to take photos with all my friends: the regulars, my classmates, housemates, FK friends, also, outsiders! OMG! I’m like so excited!

Ways to get more guests for the dinner. We’re going all-in!

I got Felicia’s number from Harry. I called her in the evening and was glad that she still remembers me! I chatted a while with her and talked to her about this coming charity gala. I think she might come since she said ‘If I cancel going for movies with friends, I will come to your dinner.’ I am very happy listening that. She told me she is now studying in Institute Trade and Business (IT&B). Meanwhile, I got a bad news from Madam Bindu (Kavita’s mother). She said she was busy and will give me a call today.

The organizing committees came to my house for meeting at 5pm. There, Roxanne asked me to accompany her to IT&B for promoting the tickets because we are now in deep trouble. Our target was 500 guests but right now, we only sold out 130 tickets and there is only another 2 days left! *sweats* So, I went out with Roxanne last night to IT&B. I met Felicia there and she is still as pretty as I first met her. Then we meet Rubin, who brought us around the college and helped us a lot. Felicia was in real surprise seeing I know Rubin. Who is Rubin? Remember I met him in Medan Musik the other day. The damned HOT guy!

Rubin drove us from IT&B to another college where he asked his friend’s help to promote our charity gala. Guess what?! He brought the fliers we gave him everywhere he went so that he is well prepared when he needs it. HELPFUL! There is only one word to describe him. No! No! Helpful and Hot! Where else on earth can you find a guy this hot and helpful?! OMG! He is friendly and funny too. After doing all the promotion last night, we had dinner in Gardenia. Rubin treat us! *arigatou gozaimashita* Gardenia here I’m talking about is a romantic place for dinner, outdoor candle-lit with separated table far away from each other, not the famous bread brand in Malaysia. The potato skins sold there were marvelous!

Today, in IMT lab, boring as usual, Nabilah suddenly came to me and talked about this coming CNY Auspicious Charity Gala. I wondered why she would ask about it in a sudden since she had long told me that she and the other Malays are not coming for the dinner. Bong managed to talk to her about the dinner today in the lab saying this dinner might be the last dinner organized by Malaysian Chinese. Many of them were touched and told us they will consider again if they are coming because they all know how successful our dinner last year was. That is why they will feel regret if they don’t join this so-said ‘last dinner’. I bet many of the guests are expecting better performance and programmes from us. I’m a bit worried. Hopefully we don’t disappoint them.

I have good news and a bad news from Madam Bindu. Bad news is that she and her family will not come for the dinner while the good news will be se is sponsoring two prizes for lucky draw. Even though they are small but at least she sponsored something. That shows that she wanted to help us too. She even said it is okay if we didn’t put her name in the booklet as one of the sponsors.

I went three colleges (Mikroskil, Harapan, and IBBI) tonight with Amie and Zhong Wei. We distributed many fliers. Hopefully all these fliers help in increasing the number of guests this Saturday. To my surprise, Fransisca who told me she won’t join us this year all the while, suddenly texted me asking if I still having extra tickets because she needs two tickets. She might bring Fendi. Fendi was said to be a very handsome dude. Well, hopefully he’ll come and there I can meet him! This good news continues with the presence of Hargo’s message. He said he might need 5 tickets. He himself, Jefry, Desi, Robert, Wenti and her boyfriend might be coming too. Hargo has been very helpful too! He helped a lot in inviting all the Indonesian Chinese studying in the regular class to come to our dinner.

I feel really grateful having all these helpful people around me. Back home, Abang Adit, the immigration guy was waiting outside my house which gave me a great shock! Luckily I have Zhong Wei next to me. That really made me relieved a little. I thought of telling him to come for the dinner too but he is going to Brastagi. I then had dinner with Zhong Wei where we chatted for so long. I shared with him most of all the problems I’m facing here. I didn’t know he realized I’m in such a condition where I desperately need a listener.

Over-sensitive?

Am I a sensitive girl? Did I misunderstand everybody here? How come I always feel that the people here are all selfish? I was taking my nap when I received Mee San’s reply. I asked her when the three of them (Mee San, Swee Luo, and May) will come over to my place for their nail arts. I promised them to do their nails for them for this Saturday. See, I’m not used to break my promise unless to those who broke their promises to me. Nail arts, I wanted to do for myself too of course! I’ve designed all the nail arts for five of us. I got too excited *giggles* I have to do my own nails last so I think I’ll do mine on Friday night. Maybe, Joanne and mine will be done on the same night. So I thought of telling them to come over these few days.

Mee San’s reply was telling they will be having skills lab and that they are washing their clothes by themselves so they worry if they do these few days, lecturers will scold them and that the nail arts will go off while washing their clothes. Alright, scolded by lecturer, I understand but washing clothes?! It is not like they are brushing their nails. Of course they must understand after I did those for them, they have to take good care of it. Then she also told me to go to her house for make-up because ‘all the things are in their house’. I wondered what ‘all the things’ are.

I mean, common la, if they don’t want to help me and Joanne with the make-ups, they can just tell right? Why choose such lousy excuse? I actually wondered if they are like that because I told them my time are quite full this semester but what I told her was real true! I have classes from 7am till 4pm. Boring classes! Thursday and Friday I’ll finish class at 12pm but I got to practice piano with Zheng Kang. I think I have to arrive to Grand Liberty Restaurant this Saturday early to check out on the piano’s sound because the last time I used it was all out of tune! Say me perfectionist, I really don’t want anything to go wrong on my performance both for piano and all as the Master of Ceremony.

Anyway, put away all those useless people. I’ve messaged See Theng and talked to her about the make-ups. She might help me with simple make-up. I don’t want to look pale. I think I look pale with what I done on myself last Saturday night for DSC CNY Dinner. Again, am I sensitive? Or I misunderstood what they are trying to tell me.

I felt so sleepy in all the classes today. I almost fell asleep! I came home, quickly showered, put on a mask and then took my nap for about 3 hours. Now I felt better, at least I don’t really feel that dizzy or headache like in the morning. I just don’t want to fall sick at this time. I got loads of assignments to do!

Crazy PRACTICE

I woke up quite early this morning thinking of the needs to do my laundry. Too bad, Bong was using the washing machine and so I went back into my room, throwing myself onto my bed again. I got a message from Wen Yan wishing ‘happy human’s day’ which means human was created today, the seventh day of the first month of the lunar calendar. This is the first time I ever heard of such thing. About an hour later, I received call from Zheng Kang asking me if I’m joining the lunch with Goon, celebrating his graduation. I didn’t know there is a lunch with him so I slept again.

After throwing my clothes into the washing machine, I showered and there I received message from See Theng and Bong asking me to go celebrate with Goon. I gave a call to Bong stupidly. I didn’t know he is in the house. I walked to his room right after cutting his call and talked to him about the lunch. We decided to go if Joanne is awake. So everybody was like waiting for us in Golden Garden and this Miss Joanne Tai was preparing herself so slowly I got no idea why can’t she hurry up. she even sounded me like ‘if you’re in such a hurry, go there without me. I’ll go by myself.’ Of course I won’t do that. What will she say if I do that? She sure will blame me at night if I do that.

She put on her contact lenses slowly where Bong message to rush me but what can I do? We are waiting for Joanne! Arriving there, everybody had done eating. I ordered fried bihun. It tasted not bad. I went to Brastagi Supermarket after that for piano practicing. It was a crazy practice. We were there seated with the grand piano from 3pm till 8pm. 5 hours! OMG! When it comes to piano and friends, I’m always enjoying myself to the fullest. Time seemed to fly during that time. Lol. I didn’t know why the more we played, the more forgetful I can be. I kept forgetting the finale and there was once where we are supposed to play Jay’s ‘silence’ but I played Alexander’s ‘kiss goodbye’. Zheng Kang was in such a shock, so did I but we both played spontaneously quite well.

Joanne and I then shopped in the supermarket. I think the things sold here are much cheaper and I spent another Rp200000 in the market. Bong messaged again at 9pm asking me if I’m still playing piano. I said I’m waiting for taxi that time. He said nothing much but reminded me to be careful and better come home, don’t go any other place. He said ‘it is late already’. Well, reading this message, I thought he is quite caring, at least it felt like he cares for his friends’ safety. Again, this had never happened in the past half a year. I can see the old him again.

Done with my pretest. Done with the DSC CNY Dinner. MCCC Dinner, hopefully everything will be fine

Dental Radiology lab was relaxing like last week even though we’re having pretest. This so-called pretest was not really a pretest to me. It was more like a group discussion since we were sitting so near to each other but I still wonder if the lecturers will really be marking our papers. I got one question wrong. I bet everybody got that question wrong. It has got a very long answer, Drg. Cek Manja Dara was telling us the answers after the pretest and it took an hour for that very question. That question was ‘jelaskan apa yang harus dilakukan dari waktu mendudukkan seorang pasien sehingga expose.’

During the pretest, Ali was like ‘doc, lepas dudukkan pasien, apa yah?’ All of us laughed out loudly. It was a pretest and he is brave enough to ask for answers. He is our hero. Surprisingly, all the Indonesian girls were really wearing lipstick. Even the Malays, they put gloss on their lips. I’m the only one with clean and clear face! Everybpdy asked why I didn’t put on something so that Drg. Trelia won’t sound us. In the end, all of them removed those cosmetics on their faces.

After the lab yesterday, I went to Medan Musik with Roxanne and See Theng. There we discussed about borrowing a grand piano but of course, it was difficult. The manager was telling perhaps they could only spare us their digital piano which looked so alike a keyboard, only that it has its own leg with it. In fact, in MGSS, we call it a keyboard! Remember, Mr. Vic Toh (Ms. Vicky’s hubby, Vanessa Toh’s dad, the boss of YAMAHA Kuantan) sponsored that keyboard to my school. There I met a guy named Rubin. He is so hot, I melt! How I hoped he didn’t noticed my melting look that time but I bet he sure saw it. Never thought he knew Zheng Kang and Liang Jie.

Then we went to another music store and surprisingly, it was Karvita’s parent’s shop! I don’t think we can get much sponsors there but we already got 2 tickets for sure! Lucky day I say. Then we went to Brastagi Supermarket for grand piano rental in Harmony. That guy seemed so blur I wonder he understood what See Theng told him. There I found out the things sold were much cheaper than Hypermart and Carrefour! I must tell Joanne to visit that place. In fact, I’m going there tomorrow itself because Harmony had just called See Theng today to confirm on the rental of grand piano to us.

He rented it with conditions to us. He wanted both me and Zheng Kang to practice at his place everyday so that we won’t do wrong during the performance and embarrass his company’s name. He is pressuring us this way! But I don’t think we are going there every day. We have classes and all so I think we won’t have much time for it. Tomorrow Zhong Wei will come and listen to our duet. Well, I am very worried of this dinner to be frank. Why? Because this Zhong Wei guy hasn’t done arranging the programs! There is still another 7 days to go!

Today was actually quite a busy day. I went to Goon’s graduation. I shared with the others to buy him a bouquet of lilies and a teddy bear. We took photos in front of auditorium. Before meeting Goon, we had pizza which was so much I am very full till the dinner just now. I did the make-up for Joanne and I am very satisfied with my job as it is my first time doing so much on make-ups for a person. Even I myself haven’t done such a thing. I was in such a rush the guys didn’t tell me they already called the taxi. Perhaps it was my wrong, I didn’t listen. I ended up attending the DSC CNY Dinner tonight without any accessories on me, not even a pair of earrings!

I only did make-ups. I wore a short black pant with the top I bought in Sun Plaza with my boots. Many said I look hot in this look. I don’t like to see my round face. How to lose those extra fleshes on my face? I used to like my chubbiness but not now. I think it is too much! Joanne cried because of stage fright so she didn’t dance on the stage. I’m always the talker so when it comes to this condition I really got no idea how I should convince her. The dinner was at okay rate to me. Not to say bad but it is not good either. I took quite a number of photos.

I think I look pale with the make-ups on maybe because I am fair and that is why I can’t use light colors. I cut my fringe when I’m home. Maybe I am too sensitive or again, I am thinking too much. I think Bong has changed again, not to worse but better. Now, I see the old him again. At least we can talk about most of the things like last time again which I never thought would happen again.