Can we actually know the way to read others’ minds? I would like to learn to read others’ minds. Perhaps by reading their mind, I won’t be in such a miserable life right now. Perhaps when I can read, when I know more, I might get into worse situation? Do all girls think too much like me? Am I thinking too much or is this normal for a girl? OMG! I think I’m asking too much! I’m still stuck in my Mid Semester Examination. I’ll be having my last paper on Forensic Studies tomorrow morning though and yet I still have time here blogging! Great huh?! Sighs…
There are so many things running in my mind: studies, families, relationship, house shifting, laptop problems and many others! My oh my~~~ can someone please share my burdens with me? Even though they are not heavy burden but I would like to have someone to share them with me =) I think I’m a simple girl. I can get happy very easily; also can be sad very easily. Small stuffs tend to disturb me a lot and because of that, I’ll always why, why, why! Many said I’m complicated. How complicated can I be? I really got no idea. Friends, I think you know me more than myself.
I didn’t study hard enough this semester. I’ve been wasting a lot of my precious time. I said wasting, so I really didn’t know how I wasted them =( Examination for the past week wasn’t really good. I didn’t prepare well for most papers, including today’s Surgery test. See I’m sitting here in front of this screen, typing words, not studying for tomorrow’s test! What can I do? I just can’t concentrate for studies this time. I must really work harder after this exam for my Finals. I can’t fail. I want to graduate earlier to leave this place. Say NO to stay here longer!
I’ll be shifting very soon. 3rd April, I’ll be shifting and I still haven’t got my things packed. I’ve contacted a few lorry drivers. I don’t know what I call them, to help us shift stuff, by renting their lorry. The prices I asked were quite expensive. Luckily the number Joanne got from Fahimah gave us cheap price but we had not confirmed with that guy about the day we’re shifting. Kelvin told me he can help by using his dad’s car but I think I must confirm with him again if his dad is using that car. I felt I’ve asked too much help from his family. I’m relying on them too much! That’s bad. But many told me that I deserved it because I’m his girlfriend, he should help. I’m not sure about that, I’m afraid others might think I’m with him because I’m using him. I didn’t want that to happen.
The day I’ve been waiting for had finally over. 28th of March, my first anniversary with Kelvin, I was so worried he would forget the day. He promised to celebrate it with me and I told him I won’t be reminding him so yea, I didn’t remind him and he remembered! I’m happy really! When he called to ask me out for dinner that evening I was so happy I wanted to jump. Alright, you must think I’m crazy. Whatever! So we went out for dinner and… nothing much~~ and it ended up with what I didn’t want to happen. It was a good night at first but not at the end. I’m not sure where the problem is. Perhaps it is me again? Perhaps I don’t trust him enough?
Thanks to this friend of mine who at least still cares for me. I thought this blog would be very long but after chatting with him, I felt a lot better, even though I’m still not sure what is the best solution right now. At least, I feel better =)