What is FAMILY?

LOL u people might think I'm having some problem in me, defining all the words here in the blog. No worries, I won't make my blog a dictionary XD What is FAMILY? That was the title for my brother's recent blog. I'm touched reading that blog of his and somehow, by reading his blogs, I'm having terrible homesick! It is Chinese New Year today! How I wished I could fly back to celebrate it with them. Too bad, we don't have holiday here at this dumb place =.=! Guess what, I even have my Full Denture practical on the 2nd day of CNY =(

Why not just face the fact since I can't go home? My plan for CNY? Frankly speaking, no plan! I'm still not sure I'm going to have it with who. I miss my family so much. Whenever we gather, my grandma will cook good food for us. I don't mean she doesn't cook good food for normal days but on special events, she'll cook dishes which everyone loves! Aww man~~ I miss popo so much~~ I must give her a call tomorrow! Opps~~ no credit! =P yea, like my brother wrote in his blog, we're closer with my mother's family compared to my dad's family. I wonder why it is so...

I don't get it why we can be good with mama's family but it turned out so differently when it comes to papa's family. Ever since I'm back from Japan, I talk a lot. I mean it! It's A LOT! Sometimes I don't even know how I can talk so much =.=" I tried talking to them (my aunts and cousins) somehow it felt more like a stranger than a family. All we do is just saying hi and that's the end of the story. I'll only be back to Malaysia twice a year so I thought when I'm home, I should meet these relatives as a respect to them, to stay connected. It is funny to know, I always hope my brother would follow me there to meet them because of the fear of loneliness.

It was so cool, in like, I'll be there meeting my grandparents and then I'll be home after answering some questions. It felt like a routine as everything happened the same way everytime I meet them. This family is so big I don't recognized all the kids. In other words, my cousins. There were too many of them! I really can't recognized them. Well, I thought kids should know me but in fact, at times, I do face problems where these kids came to me and ask "Who are you?" Their parents would feel embarrassed for this, quickly explaining to them who I am. Well, I can't blame them. I'm staying here in this boring town for more than two years already.

Can imagine how cool is this family? Sighs... What is family to you? Family is a group of people who are very close to me. They know me. They understand me. They love me =) I'm proud with my parents though when I was younger, I don't very much like the way they're controlling me. Perhaps, rebellious period of a teenager? We call each other very often on the days I'm not by their side. I can say we'll be talking on the phone on the average of twice a week. Yea, I spent a lot on phone bills. I tell them everything and they're good listener. In fact, I think our relations are closer now. Maybe because I was still young, the reason they don't share a lot with us? Now, they talk to us about everything.

I remembered how they told me they felt guilty because I wasn't throwing a party for my 21st birthday. I always wanted to have a birthday party at home, inviting my friends to my house. They promised me to make a big one on my 21st. Too bad, my friends are not around my hometown that moment. I told them it is okay for me but they felt guilty not fulfilling their promise. I know they tried very hard to make me happy that day and I was VERY happy. Aunty Joan came back from KL to celebrate it with me. Aunty Cheng and her family was there too!

We took a numbers of photos and there were few where papa and mama like most! They chose that picture as their wallpaper =.=



and below this is me on my birthday. New haircut by Evon =) but it is now long and I really need her here badly.


I'm sorry I just post this up. I didn't realized it wasn't posted.

What is L.O.V.E

What is love? I guess no one can give you the definition for the word love. Once, I was chatting with a friend and he was asking "why don't we have a handbook teaching us how to handle our relationship? How nice it is if we have a theory book that way, when we have problems in relation, we can find solution in the book." I don't know if this is a brilliant idea or should I laugh at this. Then I asked these mentioned by my friend to another friend of mine and he said "CRAZY! If there is a handbook for love, then it is not love! You have to feel love yourself."

Still, the question here is what is love? Do we feel very happy when we're in love? or do we suffer at times for love? Is love a sacrifice? Is love the best thing in the world? I guess it all depends to your other half =) Will you be proud of your bf/gf? Will you want everybody to know by telling "HEY! This is my bf/gf!" IF there is a partner of yours whom didn't want his/her friends to know about you, what is the reason of these? Is it because you're not good enough or you're embarrassing him? Why are there people who are so proud of their partners but some others are hiding?

Sighs... how do we know if that guy/girl is the right person for us? Love is so complicated.

Valentine's Day 2010 gift preparation

It’s February and Valentine’s Day is quickly approaching. One of the most important eagerly awaited parts of the Valentine's Day is the romantic gift that one receives from their lover. What nice gift ideas are left for that special guy of yours? Like many other girls, I'll be preparing gift for my special one but till now, I still got no idea what to do. I bought cooking chocolate, planned to make him some chocolates with some designs on it, though I won't be celebrating this special day with him. Most of my friends asked "How come you're not celebrating?" Most of them are shocked knowing we're not celebrating.

My boyfriend reminds me from time to time, that I need to be understanding. I learn to be understanding from him =) Too bad, Valentine's Day 2010 falls on the first day of the Chinese New Year. He is not of the same nationality with me. He is an Indonesian. I believe I mentioned a couple of times about him in my blog already. He is a Chinese so no doubt he has to be with his family, visiting relatives on the first day of Chinese New Year. That's the tradition. I don't mind we don't celebrate on that day.

Well, preparing gift for him is cracking my head. I've been thinking what to do. I bought these chocolates, only then I knew it is not an easy job =.=! and I ain't have much time and I don't have the proper utensils to cook it! But, I'll still try my best to work it out. Perhaps I'll try making some tomorrow. Wish me luck peeps! Besides giving chocolates, I plan to buy him something. Initially, I thought of buying a pair of couple tee for us both but I can't find something nice here. Yea, I'm quite PICKY at times.

I thought of making some short love notes and put at somewhere he can read it but where can I hide them? His wallet? He never let me touch it. His book? They were all kept in his room and I don't go to his room as it is on the 3rd floor =.= I only have one of his books with me right now. I guess I can't make this. Another idea is, perhaps I should write down my wish and put it in a bottle? It's like message in a bottle! But I do think empty bottle is DULL. What do I do with the bottle? What do I insert into that bottle or how do I decorate that bottle? I only got 12 days left OMG! Or should I just make love coupons and put them in this bottle?

I'll still think about it because finding a nice bottle is another problem sighs. Have you decided what to prepare for your loved ones? How would you celebrate your Valentine's Day this year? Appreciate your loved ones, show him/her how much you care on this very day! But I believe, everyday is Valentine's Day if you really appreciate your other half =)