NO MORE Rubin!

Alright! As written above, NO MORE Rubin! I bid farewell to this guy in my life. Guess what happened today! I was sleeping when Rubin called me. I was so blur I didn’t know this cute guy asked me out. I remembered he told me to go for dinner in the call but I thought he just reminded me to take my dinner that’s all. Sigh… Why must I be so blur that time. The next thing was he asked for Bong’s number. I messaged him Bong’s number.

I got up from my bed, went for a pee and washed my face. I got out of my room, thought I better tell Bong that I already gave Rubin his number but nobody was at home except for Loong. I took my dinner, bread with tuna spread and I’m full till now. I checked my Blackie later after my dinner. Oh yea… Blackie is a guinea pig I brought home from Pharmacology lab. My group mates named it Blackie because it is black and white in color. I guess it is dying soon after two injections in an hour time: panthotal and caffeine.

The next thing I know was Bong is having dinner with Rubin. Not really dinner. They had a talk, only two of them! Once I knew about it from Amie, my heart sank again. That showed Rubin contacted her like so close. I guess tonight he called her because he didn’t call me tonight. Am I a pessimist? Whatever! I really don’t know how to judge thing anymore. I really wonder what these two guys were talking. Are they encouraging each other to come for me or what? I’m confused, nervous, scared and worried at the same time. I was chatting online at the same time using Bong’s laptop. I was lucky 4 was there for me. I chatted with him and he said he think I’m not in love with Rubin so I don’t have to worry.

He asked a very good question: Do you think you’re now obsessed over Rubin now because of his personality or merely his appearance? This is indeed a very good question! I am very sure. His appearance took 70% of it because I think I still don’t know much about him. Bong came home and told me what happened between them both. He looked so happy when he is back. He smiled all the way. I never see his mouth closed *sweats* He said once he opened the door, Rubin asked ‘are you serious with li ting or you just like her?’ Bong answered ‘of course I’m serious with her. I know my feeling and I knew her feeling so we are only best friend now. I won’t force her. I only want her to be happy.’

Rubin explained to him saying he is not wooing me and told Bong not to worry. Zhong Wei told me that he taught Bong to say ‘I’m courting Li Ting’ if Rubin ask him anything about me. I think Zhong Wei really knows how to help his friend. These words really will scare other guys off. Seeing you answered so confidently, I can’t think of any guy will want to fight with him for me *as if there are guys who would fight for me sweats* Zhong Wei also told me honestly that he didn’t hope Rubin is into me because he thinks it will be difficult for me. I’m a Malaysian, he is an Indonesian. It will be more suffering if Rubin is going to Jakarta.

To be frank, I’m not really happy with what Zhong Wei told me because I think as a friend, he is doing too much but after thinking twice, I think he is quite right. I slowly found out that Zhong Wei and Bong are two good friends. Mummy called me and told that she is going to send me money. I told her about Rubin. I told her I went out almost every day with him last week. Mummy reminded me to take good care of myself and also protect myself because Rubin is a new guy. She told me not to trust him so much. Since I think Rubin is not going to call me out or even message or call me already, I think I don’t really have to consider much on mummy’s advice. Anyway, I regretted once not listening to my parents (R’s case). I’ll always bear in mind on what they told me. Not only mummy. 4 also told me the same thing. I bet 4 must be a very good friend too. I wonder how he looks in person. I’ve never met him.