FAILED

*sighs* I never expect a message received from this weirdo today on my way walking out of the campus to catch a public transport to head home. I felt so tired after the classes especially philosophy class which I still don't see the use of studying it. After attending this class for about 3 months, I don't understand, not even a thing in the class! I don't like the lecturer who think himself as funny where he joked in the class, I can't even laugh even I forced myself to do so because I never understand what he is trying to tell. I wondered why the Indonesians, girls especially can laugh so hard and they seemed to me like they can't wait to enter this class every week. Gosh~ Today he wasted our time, i meant MY time for another 40 minutes. Yea.. he let us out 40 minutes later. OMG! Thank GOD I still survive coming out of the class.

I felt so tired after this useless class, I walked so slowly alone. I just thought I want to have a good sleep to regain the energy in me. Here I hope I won't have any troble or problems anymore today, there I received message informing me about my Pharmacology and Theraphy result for my mid semester examination that day. The Awesome One FAILED! I failed this subject and now I'm supposed to submit a journal entitled 'pharmacology of vitamin B6' sighs...

I felt so down today and I don't feel like moving or talking at all. I feel that I have no more energy in me. I don't know if it is because of my result or is it because of the class which ended 40 minutes later than the actual time it is supposed to end. Arrived to the small lane back home, I met Kok Weng and Ivy together. Wondered if they are couple now but I didn't ask and I didn't even uttered a word seeing them, not even a greet. I'm so sorry for my rude-ness. Ivy asked why am I home so late. I smiled a little and said 'I just came back from campus. I had class for this extra subject taken.' Come to think of it, today I really came home late, in fact, the latest in this semester. I arrived home at 3.30pm (Malaysia time would be 4.30pm)

After messaging mummy informing her about my bad result, *I'm so sorry for not studying properly to get good grades, mummy. I know I disappoint you. I feel real guilty for it* I went for a shower. Mummy then called me sounded very worry and in fact she apologized that she responded late and told me she just read my message. I sent her that message at around 3.40pm, which means in Malaysia it is already 4,40pm. She read it at 5pm and thought she was late because she read it more than an hour after the message sent. I then explained slowly to her that I just sent that message before I went for shower which was about 20 minutes ago.

She then asked about my condition exactly the same tone like the time I failed my General Radiology paper last semester. Again, mama is always here for me when I need someone. Even though she is not here by my side in person, but she called! I felt so guilty everytime I let them down. My family is very supportive and I love my family. They never blame me in fact they will encourage me to try harder. Thank you so much for giving me chances all the time to change myself.

Guess I must strive harder over here. Dentistry is far more difficult then I expected. I once thought dentistry might be an easier course compared to medicine but now I think I'm wrong. Looking at our practicals itself, we already know how much we have to spend time in perfecting the models we are doing, unlike docotrs-to-be from the faculty of medicine only look down to the microscope all the time. Work hard li ting! Finals are here again in 5 weeks time.

365 days are NOT enough for a STUDENT

ma : girl, how's your exam today?
me : hmm.. not that good. Alot of the things asked like I know but I not sure.
ma : see? Always tell you to study you don't want. Everytime when exam's around only you'll start to panic.
me : haha.. I lazy ma.. plus.. no time study also.
ma : everyday also say no time no time.. how come when tomorrow got exam, today you got so much time to study?!
me : *keeps quiet, think hard, still trying to find excuses* err.. haha.. because tomorrow got exam so today MUST study? lol

See? This is what happened most of the time when it comes to examination season. I always tell my parents that I got no time to study. Wonder where all my time went *hmm? where?* Sleep? Watch movie? haha.. I guess they all went there. But look, come to think of it, in fact I think time really is not enough for a student to study. There is too much to study in our life, dealing with all these boring looking thick books. Let us all count together:

Typical academic year for a student:

Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest, also we call it a FAMILY DAY.
Days left 313.

Summer holidays - 50 days where weather is very hot and and stuffy that is why is difficult to study.
Days left 263.

8 hours daily sleep - 122 days GONE. These are to keep our skin complexion good and MOST IMPORTANTLY, so that the next day we can pay full attention in our lectures.
Days left 141.

1 hour for daily playing (good for health and it is a MUST for a normal human being to relax everyday) - means 15 days.
Days left 126.

2 hours daily for food and other delicacies (proper mastication and swallowing for easy digestion) - means 30 days.
Days left 96.

1 hour for talking (man is a social animal) - means 15 days.
Days left 81.

Exam days per year - at least 35 days.
Days left 46.

Festival celebrating & semester break (holidays) - 40 days.
Days left 6.

For sickness per year - at least 3 days.
Days left 3.

Movies and functions per year - at least 2 days (I took more than two days most of the time)
1 day left.

That 1 day is your birthday.
It is your BIRTHDAY! How can you study on that day?! That's the day where we hang out with friends or perhaps have a gathering with family.

So, Balance = 0

So, I'm right that we STUDENTS always have NO TIME to study! So how do you expect a student to score in his/her examination?

It's not the fault of student if he/she fails because the year ONLY has 365 days...

another OK going paper

Alright. First of all, I said this pathology clinic paper was OK going today because I manage to get a little help from the lecturer. lol. Thanks so much to this 'unknown' lecturer :X

I didn't know there are so many lecturers in the department of pathology clinic. I've been meeting different lecturer in every class, every practical in the lab, even in my exam today! I can't recognise them all @.@

Next paper will be Oral Biology followed by Philosophy on Saturday. Gannbatte ne~ +u +u!!!

hard work paid

I got shocked once I arrived to my campus today. Looking at Indonesians who don't know how to respect people is normal here but I never thought even Dentistry students who will become one of the professionals one day also didn't know how to respect people. It is such a mess to see the examination condition today. I'm sure the juniors were surprised with this condition today too!

I had my Dental Public Health paper today at 10am. As usual, for examination day, I'll arrive at least half an hour earlier than my examination time because we don't sit according to our student registeration number here, it is like FIRST COME FIRST SERVED system over here. So I have to be early in order to get good seat (place near to air-conditioner because the air-cond here works like a fan, not cold at all). The juniors were using the hall when I arrived, they are having their Bahasa Indonesia paper that time.

Guess what I see in the hall? There is one lecturer sitting in front, opening his eyes big to see if there is students coppying answers but still I didn't see any actions taken even when students open up their book to copy answers as if it was an open-book examination. Then there, I see some of my Indonesian classmates were in the hall too. What are they doing in the hall that time? They are not taking exam. They were standing behind the juniors, each person behind each junior, trying to get that place once the juniors finish their exam, once the lecturer gets out of the hall. OMG! I can't believe my eyes seeing all these. Can't they respect those who are sitting for examination? Can't they respect the poor lecturer in front who is much shorter than these big sized students?

Anyway, today's paper was hmmm... EASY! EASY! My hard work past few days were all paid! I can still see Indonesians copying answers from their friends today in my class even though we're sitting so far apart. The lecturer doesn't seemed to really care. Perhaps he didn't see them copying. Hmm..

side effect of stress

It is stressful studying all the books for mid sem. The books are as high as mountain when I put them all together =.=! I heard there are 2 mechanisms of stress in human being. I don't know how true it is though. When a person is under stress, one of the mechanisms will work to lower the tension in us. First mechanism is that we will not eat. We don't feel like eating at all. Second mechanism goes totally opposite. We will eat nonstop, eat eat eat, eat like nobody's business, eat like a mad person. Some of the girls who have this second mechanism will then have eating disorder. They feel stress, they eat like mad, then they feel guilty for eating and so.. use ways like forcing themselves to vomit what they ate. It was a pity looking at girls with eating disorders. Well, I don't know how these mechanisms work though. I only heard my biochemistry lecturer telling us those that I mentioned above last semester.

So.. yea.. I'm under stress like many of my coursemates and sadly, I'm type 2. My body responds with the second mechanism. I eat nonstop, eat eat eat, eat like nobody's business, eat like a mad person when I'm with my books. Sometimes I really feel like vomitting after I ate especially once I close my books but when I go to the washroom, I didn't manage to throw them out from my stomach. I was thinking whether I will soon have eating disorders because I feel guilty after eating. Previously, I don't feel this way after I eat but nowadays, yes. After eating, I'll ask myself like why can't you just not eat for a day? I'm taking too much calories!

So I went to Seoul Garden which is located on the 3rd floor in Sun Plaza with Joanne today. There are two reasons why I go to this place. This place has got a variety of food, we can eat as much as we can. At home, there is wifi where I won't be able to concentrate on studies. I'll chat with friends in msn or check my profiles in both friendster and facebook instead of studying. So I decided to bring along my book into this restaurant.

I had hard time before going out. Finally I chose this black top as I think I'll look thinner. lol

Black top with jeans plus my favourite treble clef in diamonds given by Ann and her hubby. oh How I wish they were real =.=

So we both started off going to BreadTalk. We thought it might not be that crowded since it is last day of puasa today but to our surprise, all Chinese went shopping today. First time in my life seeing Chinese families going shopping like this in Medan. Usually I only see Chinese hanging out with their friends of their age, aunty gossips with aunties, uncle crapping with uncles, guys looking for pc games while girls shopping and laughing all the way.

Alright ladies and gentlemen, throw a guess on what is inside the box. Breads? Cookies? No No No! hahaha.. nobody gets it! Yay~ *laughs out loudly* okay, I know I abit gila today. Forgive me.

Ta-da~ It's a blueberry cheesecake. It has been months since I last ate it!After getting this cheescake from BreadTalk, we head straight to Seoul Garden. Paid before we went in as usual. This is the third time I'm here. First time was with Joanne, Syuhada, Ethan and See Theng. Second time was celebrating Joanne's birthday where she changed her mind in the end, not treating us. So third time being here, still the same price, thank GOD the price didn't increased. I'm broke now. Super Duper Hyper broke...

This is the price for two person. Already got 10% discount though. Oh to get this 10% discount, you have to be the VIP. To be the VIP, you have to go through complicated processes and apply alot of stuffs. It's troublesome so I advise you not to do so. =.= zzz... I'm crazy today really. Crapped so much. Actually, these complicated applications that I mentioned are applying to get into one of these universities in Indonesia, be one of the students in one of the universities and get the student card. Show the cashier your student card then they'll give you this 10% discount =) See? That's why la.. don't trust me when I said it is complicated and troublesome.

Then it is time to FEAST! Like I said, there are a variety of food you can get here

chicken and beefseafood

vegetables

salad

This is the place the waitress brought us. We settled down and start bbq-ing and steamboat-ing. hehe.. Named Seoul Garden, needless to ask, of course it is a korean bbq =.=

Can't wait to eat!

These are the food that I did just now~

banana is still with her wrong way of holding chopsticks!practice hard on holding with the right waytired of practicing. I rather use the fork. It is easier! Eh? I didn't know I got snapped @.@using hand... I enjoyed more lol

makan makan makan! 

I'm enjoying this cheese cake to the max!

yummy yummy~ I can taste the blueberries on my lips *giggles*

See? CLEAN and CLEAR! Not the shampoo la.. I meant my tongue. Clean tongue! I love this piece of cheese cake~

somehow I didn't manage to finish up this piece of cake. I'm too full!

Done with eating. Study time!

SPOTTED! li ting is eating again. See? Like I said. I can't separate books and food. I must eat when I'm with my books. sigh...

*shocked* got snapped again~

really never thought I'm back to schooling time again. HISTORY?! wth! 

tired with histories of medicine studies in Indonesia =.= I really can't think of a reason on why we have to know history here

result of studying and eating at the same time

FRUSTRATIONS! I don't understand this language. It is so hard to study without understanding the language and have to memorize their history at the same time.

bu bu bu ~ wo bu yao! *opps!* I don't want all these! Mama~ HELP!!

what is this supposed to be? ate too much? depression? Joanne~ don't get so stressed la~

Conclusion? I don't know. You make the conclusion. I had great time eating and studying here though. Hopefully I can pass all papers =)

FRESH from oven~

I got a good news, also a bad news. Good news will be, I'll have one week holiday in few days time. Bad news will be I'll have my Mid Semester Examination right after the holiday. Should I be happy or sad? Examination is so near and yet I haven't started touching a single page of my thick books. There are loads to read for this sem as all the exams are supposed to be done in essay form not like previously, everything in MCQ. Timetable for my Mid Sem Exam:

08 October  Dental Public Health I

09 October  Pathology Clinic

11 October  Dental Radiology I

                  Philosophy

13 October  Orthodontics I

                  Oral Biology

15 October  Pharmacology and Therapy I

16 October  Pathology Anatomy

18 October  Prosthodontics I

IMT 2nd mid exam

I had IMT 2nd mid exam on the 29th November which was few days back. We were told that we're going to sit for the exam during our IMT lecture time. So, it WAS supposed to be from 0800 to 0850.

I entered the class with my IMT book on my hands, trying to flash back what I read the night before and confirm all the points again with my friends. All of us thought the exam is gonna be 50 minutes long. We were told that it'll be an essay formed examination. So , basically, 50 minutes is not enough for us to jot down all the points in the answer sheets later.


Hmm.. lets see what time did all the lecturers came in? Sharp at 0815, Drg. Lasminda came in with Drg. Chadidjah (the scariest lcturers) folowed by Drg. Rusfian (our pembantu dekan III) with all the answer sheets. Let me count for you. They're late for 15 minutes. OK..


Next, the shifted our places and passed us the answer sheets, which took them for about 5 minutes. OK.. 20 minutes gone. Then? They ditated the questions to us and there were all together 8 questions!!


Finally, we started our exam at around 0830. Relax li ting..


Since I'm lack of time .. I wrote all my answers in point forms. My writing was.. errr. FANTASTIC! No other words can be replaced there.. lol


I did only 3 questions, and this Drg. Chadidjah was shouting "masa tinggal 7 minit"

The whole class screamed for help.. That time was 0843 and there's only another 7 minutes for us. I thought they would spare us more time as they came in late. I quickly write what I remembered, never care bout whether its right or wrong and there she goes again "masa tinggal 2 minit saja lagi. yaa... udah udah.. Masa udah tamat. Berhenti menulis" That was 0845.


I was speechless.. This was my first exam ... having 8 essays in 15minutes????!!!

how could this happen?!
How are we supposed to finish it?!
DAMN IT..

After passing up the paper, I took my IMT book out of my bag and checked for my answers.

GOSH..
I mistaken Rubber Base Impression Compound as Hydrocolloids Impression Materials.
arghhh... HELP !!

I felt like crying that time.. really..

All my points were right, I might scored 100% if the questions asked were on Hydrocolloids Impression Materials.



but...



why Ruber Base????
now?
I got 0% for my 2nd mid sem examination!
I don't wanna resit my first sem!

Final Examinaion for FIRST SEMESTER

Time really flies. It seemed like I just came and I'm having my final examination this coming Monday itself. omg.. HELP ME please. I'm having tonnes of problems with my studies. Final is here and I'm not ready at all. I just don't know why I can't concentrate that much and that I feel tired easily. Timeable for my finals:

26 Nov bio practical
27 Nov physics practical
28 Nov chemistry practical
29 Nov 2nd mid for IMT
20 Nov biochemistry practical
03 Dec english language
04 Dec physical chemistry
05 Dec physics
06 Dec anatomy
08 Dec organic chemistry
10 Dec biology
11 Dec biochemisty
12 Dec IMT
13 Dec indonesian language

gosh.. save me from this disaster. I don't wanna resit !

li ting li ting..
GANNBATTE NE~