This is the second place for me to write out all my complaints, discomforts, everything, my feelings: happy, sad, excited, bored… etc. My diary is the first place of course. I found out I only write diary when I wasn’t in Malaysia. Why? Perhaps, my best friends are not around me? Perhaps, papa and mama are not here with me? I got no idea.
My lip hurts! It is all because of the IMT lab work. My lab partner, N *yea… the same guy who is staying in the same house with me* accidentally broke his model and now he has to redo it. Redo the whole thing starting from getting the impression of my teeth. I didn’t know why this time it is so difficult for him to get my impression until that he used more than about 700g of alginate. We continually tried to get this impression for few hours in a day until my gums bleed at around my premolars and first molars. Not only that, my lower lip swells too. I only realized it was swollen after I took my bath and look myself into the mirror two days back.
Yesterday, the swell on my lower lip slowly reduced but it swells inside the cheeks, especially my right check. It was a little painful but I still manage to look as if it doesn’t hurt me at all. Today, I can’t open my mouth widely as usual because when I do so, it hurts. My friends were asking why I looked so polite, talked so softly, and ate so slowly today. Wakakaka… I felt funny in me when they asked that. That was the first time in my life that people said I AM POLITE! OMG! I never thought this day will come lol.
Even so, back home after classes, we did this impressing stuff again at home. He was a little afraid if I hurt. According to him, even though I said I still can do it, but my face reactions betrayed me every time he tried to put the impression tray into my mouth. Today, it bleeds again in my mouth maybe because he didn’t put it right, the metal, it was stainless steel actually, at the sides of the impression tray were pressed wrongly down to my mandible arch to get my impression. He placed the impression tray to deep into my mouth and so the stainless steels were pressed onto my anterior teeth. The blood flows out of its capillary voluntarily. It hurts more this time actually. The right side of my lip were getting more painful than morning time.
I know how stressful it is not completing this lab work. I faced this before. I sensed he is under stress too. I just hope he can get my impression as soon as possible. I told him to do it again. Actually there were few impressions we got were quite good but we both were not satisfied. Maybe it is because we were both perfectionists? Many people here said I am a perfectionist and that is why I’m always stressed out. I never satisfied with my own work even though many people think what I did were very good.
A very good example, Anatomy journal! I spent 2 hours for one drawing and yet I am still not satisfied with my own drawing. The others spent 2 hours for the whole journal which includes at least 40 pictures of bones, joints, muscles, and foramen. They said I wasted too much time on all these nonsense which is actually already a very good work. Even lecturer doesn’t really believe that it was my drawing, he thought I scanned them, he even tried to rub his fingers on the pictures to check if I photocopied or I drew it with 2B pencils. Hey people, I’m not trying to show off okay. I’m just giving an example on why people say I’m a perfectionist.
I really hope N can get a nice model out of this newly made impression. Don’t waste my blood, N! lol. Anyway, if he really has to redo it, as his lab partner, I still have to sacrifice my mouth. OMG! Sounded like I sacrificed a lot but nope! I made him suffer previously too for my good models even though I didn’t make him bleed and swell. Now it is my turn to help him.
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