back for updates!

here I am back for updates on myself. Life without internet at home these few days were bored, very boring, super duper hyper boring! I'm here for the first time blogging at this cafe owneed by my agent (Cafe Medic Ed and Dent). It is so dumb that we can't get the wifi connection in the class. Perhaps our dean wanted us all to pay full attention in the class but but but I can't! I felt so sleepy in the class these days maybe because I'm not feeling well?But I do think I'm fully recovered right now.

I had high fever on Monday after bringing the juniors to TASBI looking for Dr. Keriahen's house. I took Panadol Activfast which doesn't do any effect on me at all and I slept the whole day like mad. These tablets are so scarily big sized OMG! Yep... I stil have phobia towards all these tablets and capsules like I need about 1 litre of water just to swallow 2 tablets =.= I'm not joking >.<

Life has been hectic. Lecturers are giving us assignments like mad once again. Hopefully I can finish them all in time especially my journal on Pharmacology of Vitamin B6. The Department of Dental Radiology is going to give us assignment too! I'm waiting for the order from my class representative.

I am so stressed out with my IMT lab work now. Guess what?! I managed to get 2 perfect impressions of my partner out of 3 trying while practicing at home but I can't get one impression, NOT EVEN ONE impression after using about 700grams of alginate! I don't know what is wrong with me I got so stressed out in the lab yesterday. Chun tried taking impression from me too. He had put too much alginate on the impression tray that I almost vomitted in the lab.

I really has got no idea on what is wrong in me. After I had fever that day, I got no appetite at all. Don't feel like eating? Feel a great nausea once the food are in my mouth? Both...! I wanted to go on diet and I planned to take 2 light meals a day, like at least I eat something everyday, not fattening food of course! BUT I know how bad it is to go have eating disorders. I want to be thinner healthily! Like I said before, I'm pretty worried of myself having bulimia nervosa. I don't want to join those models who wanted to go thin, eat alot like normal people in front of others but run into the ladies after the meal, put my finger deep into my throat to force myself throw everything out from my stomach!

It surprised me of my own act yesterday afternoon. I never dared doing it but I did it yesterday. I went to the toilet, put my finger into my thraot and tried to force things out from my stomach but NOTHING came out! I never thought I would do so. I never intend to do so and I really has got no idea why I did it! Perhaps it is because of the alginate that I think I swallowed a little in the lab? or is it really because I am one of those with bulimia nervosa with me?! I don't want myself to get into this condition! But I just don't know why I don't feel like eating at all. After forcing myself that way in the washroom, my throat hurts to the max till now. It is still hurting me! HELP! Is there any way to help me to get my appetite back?

I haven't been eating normally since four days ago. Abnormally in like I only took fillet-o-fish from McD delivery on Tuesday(which created a great nausea in me once I swallow them, I ran to the washroom for quite a while but didn't manage to throw out), a cup of mushroom soup yesterday and today, two piece of pineapples and a little 'ciku' since my friends suggested me to take fruits). Do you think this eating habit of mine is normal or abnormal?