I was so happy this morning thinking of going back home. Why must these people spoil my mood? I already tried my very best to be really patience but I can stand NO MORE!
I almost argued with B last night at home because of Radiology assignment given by Dr. Cek Dara that day. I am very sure that if I didn't control myself last night, I might have already exploded. Living at a place like this, with this bunch of brainless people around me, I really must control myself so that I don't explode easily. I am very clear myself that I can't be the old me anymore because everybody here is just SO different.
I won't say I hate them because I know if I hate them, my life here for the coming years will be real suffering for me. I just don't like the way they do things! I did some parts of the journal. L passed it to me yesterday evening. I didn't take my usual short nap just to complete this assignment thinking that I have to submit it today. When I was doing it, B messaged *which I don't know why he must message when he is just outside my room* he asked if his thumb drive is with me. I said yea... because the files are in his thumb drive and I'm doing the part I should do. He replied, do faster and hand me back my thumb drive.
So I thought he rushed me that way because he wanted to do his part that time. I did them as quickly as I can and I passed it back to him at around 6pm. What happened that pissed me off is he disturbed my mood right before I sleep! SLEEP is a very important thing to me. Those who gave me calls while I’m sleeping will surely get a good scolding from me if the call is all of nonsense but if that call is important, I’ll answer the call seriously and of course, I’m not that mean to scold. Come one, I know when and who to scold.
It was about 12.30am and I was preparing myself for a good sleep last night since I didn’t take a short nap in the evening, I was lying on my bed already, hugging Mr. Patrick in my hands and I received message from B again.
Hey, sleep already? I guess it is still early for you right? Busy what?Why? Radiology assignment done?
Assignment? Why? Hmm… I don’t know how to say. The others just seemed not to concern about this assignment. Every time I asked them about it, they just answered don’t know. I also don’t what to do with it.Excuse me, tomorrow we have to pass up le… Print out the journal and also the slides we did, also, burn them both into CD. I saw Joel’s group submit both hard and soft copy yesterday. Has C got the email from Andrew already? I’ve asked Andrew to send the format of the first page for the journal to him.
You want to know about C, you go ask him yourself la… Eh… you know why I’m absent to class today? I got food poisoning again T.TReading that message, I got up from my bed and walked out of my room to C’s room, knocked his door and asked him about the email. He said he got it, I was relieved. So I asked him if he can pass me the completed journal and presentations at the same time, together with the format because I also need it for my pharmacology journal which I have to submit tomorrow morning. He said all the journals are done and surprisingly, he said it out loudly ‘
hey come on la… We were given 3 weeks to do this journal. How can I not finish them?’ That moment, I am pretty sure he thought I was mentioning pharmacology journal so I told him ‘
I meant Radiology journal. We have to submit that tomorrow.’
He looked at me, puzzled and then gave me a great shock by saying ‘where is it now?’
I was like ‘huh? You’re asking me where is it now? Alright! Forget about it, you pass me the format. I need them for my vitamin B6.’ Then, I walked grumpily to B’s room, knocked his room and entered without him answering the knocks. I asked him where are the slides and the journal now and if everything is done. He opened up the files in his thumb drive not knowing which file it is. It was so obvious he hasn’t open up or go through the work ever since I passed the thumb drive back to him. He then asked me what he should do. He thought I’ve done everything.
What?! You were rushing me and now you things like this. I sounded quite angry talking to him that time. L is here at the right time to say he will do the rest. I wasn’t angry because they didn’t do the work. I was pissed off because they were not doing it and they didn’t let me do it when I say let me finish up the rest. He said never mind. What did he mean by saying all these? I don’t care if you have food poisoning or what so ever because I am so NOT going to trust what you say anymore. I mean, dudes… let you guys judge this. He is saying he has food poisoning that is why he can’t attend the classes in the morning. That must be quite a serious case right? But what I see when I arrive home at 3pm after class was, he is gaming. He was gaming until the time he messaged me at 12.30am! Do you think he is sick or what?!
He sent me another message at around 2.45am later telling me not to worry because he and L had done everything. Okay. I tried to trust them for the very last time and it was an ABSOLUTE wrong to trust them. This morning I came out of home early to Medic Ed and Dent CafĂ© to get online to book my flight ticket. I was so happy that time because I thought I’ve done all my assignments, Pharmacology, Prosthodontics, Radiology, everything! You name it, I’ve done them! And I just book my flight ticket back. What a wonderful morning huh.
I was so wrong. I entered the class, I only see N in the class. The others all skip class as usual. He showed me the things he printed. While handing the compilations to me, I asked if they already burn them into CD. He said no. Fine. Soft copy is not a very big deal. Once I looked into the journal, GOODNESS GRACIOUS!!! It was all in a mess! Everything is not in order! Slides?! Wow~ I’ve never seen such great work! It was the 3 slides plus another two slides that L did. 5 slides?! Still that 5 old slides and he messaged informing me he done them last night?! Kill me! KILL ME! I feel like banging my head into the wall for that instance! OMG! I really never thought they would give me such a big surprise in this early morning. Luckily I have my laptop with me.
I tried my best to continue doing the slides after class at 11am. Now, this time, N rushed me telling me to do faster because it is Friday today. The Muslims will have to pray and so all departments will close at 12pm. I did them at my best and I managed to do another 5 slides. At least 10 slides look like something I am not embarrassed to hand it up to my lecturer. N quickly ran out to get them printed again and then submit the work to the department.
See… I really am not mad at them because they didn’t do work because I already know them few days back. I just don’t understand why B acted exactly like a weirdo? He acted like that ever since the incident during our last holiday. Is it my entire fault that he acted so awkwardly right now? If it is a YES, I apologize but why is he doing all these to me? Telling me he is sick and stuff. Sending me messages like… sigh… This is not the first time already. I’m speechless. Sometimes, I really felt like shouting at his face ‘YOU ARE VERY ANNOYING! STOP DISTURBING ME! DON’T MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE. I WANT TO STAY HERE HAPPILY SO PLEASE, GET OUT OF MY LIFE AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!’ But in the end, I think I shouldn’t say these to him. It hurts. We are still housemates, course-mates and classmates after all. I don’t want us to be not talking to each other even though we are living under the same roof.